dumbly innocent

move house!

2006-05-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

relocated to http://precious--.blogspot.com

may or may not delete away this blog.. too many memories..

i wonder why...

2006-05-18T20:14:00.000-07:00

life is so unfair...
people get hurt...
people are never happy...
people are never satisfied...
we never learn how to appreciate...
we never learn to be understanding...
good things must come to an end...
i do the things i do...
there isn't a dreamland in reality...

hummmm...

2006-05-17T22:34:00.000-07:00

i need a brainwash... i feel scared all of a sudden...

i guess...

2006-05-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

im not a good girl..

cos jackie told me once that good girls dont cry...

yeh... right.

2006-05-15T22:24:00.000-07:00

"stop crying over spilt milk..."

like i care about milk. just thinking about the people i'll disappoint with those sickening results.. how can i not cry?

"it's alright.. you still have o levels."

that's what everyone's saying to everyone else. how can it possibily be alright? im just lying if i say im ok...

rahh to those people with damn good results but still not satisfied.. hello? get a life!

2006-05-14T18:33:00.000-07:00

i feel like an alien. an alien with migrane.

think think

2006-05-12T23:47:00.000-07:00

took some personality test.. quote quote! you need to solve your problems with your heart, not your head

ok.. that was rather profound. heart head heart head! rahh.

i slept the day away.. potential sleeping beauty eh? procrastinating it my favourite hobby.. that's why im blogging. lala back to tys.

hmmsss

2006-05-12T00:13:00.000-07:00

alright i duno why i want to post again.. but i just want to. suddenly alot of thoughts came rushing back again when i was blogging.. reading other people's posts.. im very feel sleepy but i dun wna go to bed. my head is aching but i dun care. i dunno what im feeling now. today's one day where i heard/read so much from so so so many people. felt so many mixed emotions im going crazy. never felt this exhausted before.

sing with all the voices of the mountain

rahh rahh random

2006-05-11T18:06:00.000-07:00

yours truely.. ~~WANTS~~ NEEDS desperately to go shopping! not alone though. i see my shopping list starring at me. stare stare. rahh. so so so so so many things i wna get.. i need to get! no shopping = no life. boo.

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colours of the wind -- disney

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name.

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high can the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down then you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or coloured skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colours of the wind

You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind

ooh

2006-05-10T14:03:00.000-07:00

hmm just found out someting really shocking. still in a state of shock.. yay tonight.

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this poem was written when i was walking home
to express my feelings about being alone

here i feel like a piece of shit
drowning slowly bit by bit
with no one there to answer my call
who will pick me up when i fall

i was stuck left abandoned in many places
seeing so many unfamiliar faces
all that was in my little head then
was that i really needed a friend

someone to turn to in times of despair
someone whom i know will always be there
so then i searched everywhere
but found no one nobody out there

to answer my plea my call for help
they were all busy that's how i felt
alas no one had time for me
i was calling out so desperately

again i wished that someone would care
i looked around but there was only air

you would never understand my pain
of crying alone standing in the rain
so shut up stop trying to console me
you know nothing about my misery

you who have friends for God's sake stop whining
you have absolutely no reason to be crying
shut up and treaure them you have someone to love
for these are God sent from above

for all the lonely souls out there
i pray that you may find somewhere
to rest your heart when you're weary
so you'll never again be lonely.

let go

2006-05-09T19:09:00.000-07:00

stop trying. cos it doesn't go the way it's planned. stop fretting. it'll only create more misery and more wrinkles. stop whinning. it's not gonna change anything. stop crying. tears mean nothing.

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thank you daddy for the morning's breakfast. i really appreciated that. thank you rousy for 8 hours of chemistry. i killed more brain cells than ever. thank you heart for continuing to pump so i'll survive tml. thank you anyone for making a difference, whether good or bad, i learnt reality. thank you life for teaching me, that you're not a fairytale. thank God for sleep. but i'll wake up to more dismays. thank me for trying to carry on, i'll drop dead anytime.

2006-05-05T20:32:00.000-07:00

im sorry. i was at my lowest.. no one was there.. i was crying to bed.. no one saw. i hid my tears well.. never felt so scared in my life. i guess that's my fate. i tried to avoid reality. it always came back to haunt me. i cant get anything right. im sorry.

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If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you care?
If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened, would you come?
If I had one day left, to live my life. Would you be part of that last day?
If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours?

rahh

2006-05-01T21:54:00.000-07:00

previous post got deleted cos my com hanged.. rahh. so many things in my head now.. so many mixed feelings inside. im gna explode.. like balloon? no. like bomb. why why why now. NOW? i guess bad things all happen at the same time? no? oh it happens to me. im alright. (i hope)

BOOM!

2006-04-24T16:32:00.000-07:00

friday was the most miserable evening in my life. i hate thunder. boom boom boom! boo. hope it doesn't happen again.

a lil time for myself now since all the time the last few days were dedicated to my books. it's raining cats dogs monkeys cows and chimpanzees! lightning flying everywhere. help. i hate thunder. it makes my heart skip a beat. like skipping rope? thank goodness im home alr.. if not..

now reality. i know everyones saying it.. but exams are here. here! rahhh. i dunno what to say. i dun even know where to start=(

my living room is having a thunderstorm.. the lightning is my sister and the thunder my brother.. the flying schol bags and textbooks are like rain! wow what an example. drama time again. bahh. they wont get tired of performing i tired of watching le. bang here bang there shout here shout there. rahh. they have too much energy.

oh yes. my bdae wish kinda came true on friday! the four of us.. together again.. somewhat not really but somewhere there. im so happy =) memories... sigh

oh dearest books how i miss you so! *pukes*

I finally......

2006-04-21T20:21:00.000-07:00

understand what it feels like to be lost and alone..
know the true meaning of being scared..
get what it feels like to be crying in the rain..

you dont understand. you wont and never will. never. ever.

......

2006-04-19T20:54:00.000-07:00

shhh. if only there were someone who understands.. someone who listens.. someone who actually gives a damn. someone who will not cheat my feelings or lie to me. this hurts way to much. i guess you never knew.

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my poor brother. kena bullied by his big fat and notorious classmate. came back crying and the whole family started guessing who hurt him where. ingenious me managed to dig something out from his mouth and the truth came out. wlao his classmate is an idiot lah. i think he's jealous that my brother's the class monitor. physical abuse leh! since monday lah! today then my brother tell... to all big bullies and potential ones.. fat big ah? means can anyhow bully people meh? to that stupid bully that kajiao my brother: you are the biggest coward i've ever heard off! boo boo big boo to you! see my brother skinny then bully him. i despise you!

blahh

2006-04-16T19:11:00.000-07:00

some people are just retarded. some are just dumb. some just have nothing better to do. rahh to idiots.

taking a break off bio.. like chem, kills brain cells. haii. stigma style pericarp stamen ovary ovule rahh! not like i will become a flower.

anyway. 9 weeks to adventure camp 2! ahh so far away. looking forward so so much! hope janey can go... i know daddy will make a way.. saturday's dare.. bb boys from some school in the north (i din catch the name) came to perform for us! they performed with bagpipes and drums! so cool. first time i ever saw bagpipes! haha. they had their enrolment service where they matched up to be promoted! so cute.

yes the best news for the week: no choir pract tml! finally a day off school early. just the thought of going for choir pract scares me now. i dunno why, but it does. oh whatever.. i shall start growing into a flower!

thank you!

2006-04-12T22:12:00.000-07:00

yay! thank you everyone for the wonderful day! =) esp those at bk today! um with a paper pearl.. chilli is disgusting! haha. thanks for all your well wishes, smses, hugs, cards, gifts and goodies! i love you all! =)

well i need need to complain. the school exam timetable is horrigible, terrible and um vegetable! fen ming jiu shi want all of us to get into sss wad! wad kind of stupid timing lah. gah. but my poor sis worse. 3 subjects a day! means her exam finishes in 3 days! which is quite stupid i think. as i said before. the school is dumb. all these rubbish make it dumber!

anyway. had like two rounds of food today! yes i know you want me to grow fatter... oh i have something to announce! listen/ read carefully! it's very very important..

jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
jackie is a bimbo!
!!!

whoa no breath le. as caho said. must yong gou ben! cos jackie wont kajiao me if i say it for today! muahahahaha. i think i say alot of times le. wah tired.

okok. enough crap. time to start work! lala!

lalalalalalalalala!

2006-04-11T22:36:00.000-07:00

oooh! haha. im still full now trying to get some burp out? haha.. tkx shey darling for the wonderful dinner! pepper lunch for dinner! oh how contradicting.. haha. I LOVE CHOCOLATES! i said that to shey in the train then the train jerk and i almost fell down! i hate peak hours.. squeeze like crazy pancake oso got no space. and i realise im going extremely broke!! saving up for singapore sale.. sponsors anyone? hee hee.

ok. reality! myes is in 3-4 weeks! humans! we are humans! oh why did i say that. haha. study! yawn yawn im feeling sleepy.. need to STARDEEE! wait i see stars ah.. oh im starting to talk rubbish le. blah bala lala!--

2006-04-10T21:57:00.000-07:00

Sunny days and starry nights
lazy afternoons
You're counting castles in the clouds
and humming little toons.
But somehow right before your eyes
the summer fades away,
Everything is different and
everything has changed

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

Funny how a photograph
Can take you back in time
To places and embraces
that you thought you left behind
Trying to remind you
that you're not the only one
but no-one is an island
when all is said and done

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

There'll come a day when you're losing your way
And you won't know where you belong
They say that home is where the heart is
So follow your heart and know that you can't go wrong.

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you ...

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you ...
where you belong ...
I know your heart will lead you home.

aww this is one nice song.. i love it! since the school the messages cannot be heard.. this song's dedicated to all my darling friends out there.. since this week is friendship week! i love you all! =)
happy birthday jiahui! =)

hmmm...

2006-04-09T21:13:00.000-07:00

lalala so many things happened this week.. good ones and bad ones. hmm lets see. tests.. bah spoils mood. teachers like npk just ruins your day.. mel fell sick.. get well soon girl! take care..

yes and i received alot of good news! ok lets see where to start. firstly. i received alot of nice letters and notes and encouragements this week, so so uber happy! =) tkx to all the nice nice people for their well wishes and encouragement. i really needed that. next thing is that there's NO NO NO PE next week! hurray and hurray again! lala. first time i think that the school system is finally making some sense! heehee. and and and. NO common test next week! whoosh! and no tests given so far! lalalalalala. yes. and the BEST thing is that it is NEXT WEEK. hehheh. my daddy said that God's gracious to me! and yes i agree! =) nothing could be better than my dad's company cancelling his overseas trip for next week! these kind of overseas trips hardly get cancelled. praise God! favour! like what alene said =) i am His precious darling! oh i feel so loved.

haha so i guess this week has been the best week so far in this term! =) and i just know next week will be better! =)

stupid so stupid

2006-04-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

enrichment/ enhancement lesssons are useless, dumb and time consuming. the purpose itself is misleading already. for the sake of those who dont already know. our oh so wonderful school system set up this enrichmrnt programme for all those b3/b4 scoring students based on their testly performance. which i think is quite useless and dumb.

firstly, what happens to all the students who score c5/c6? said the school "purpose of the enhancement is to pull up those students who have been scoring Bs to As. then the Cs people leh? does that mean they have no hope already? seem so to me. so means as long as i faithfully score a c5/c6, i dont have to be tied down by all these enrichment lessons! then i can faster go home rest. cos apparently the only people who dont kena enrichments are those faithful As and faithful Cs. how to get A? so get C lor. and failing is not an option cos those who fail get into tutorial.

then, attending these enrichments conducted by ONE teacher only with more than 40 students in the class! cos there are students from every class! i dont see the point. what's the difference from a normal lesson? it would only be effective if these lessons were to focus more on the student's weakness and help each individual! the teacher wouldn't even notice if the students were sleeping! how then to pull the students results up to a higher grade? these people who set up these systems are totally brainless.

plus, students would have to WAIT for the time slot for their enrichment lessons! wouldn't that waste alot of sleeping time? i waited like 45 min for the enrichment lesson today.. duh nobody in the right mind would study so i went down to snack! and fyi 45 min extra for sleep is a luxury now. every night when i start to fall into my beauty sleep, it's time for school. got saturday and sunday you may say, but that's for YOU lah. my sat early mornings are slogging at tuition, and lovely sundays at church, followed by tuition. sleep? wait long long.

so in conclusion. the dumb system should do away with enrichments! as it's dumb enough, why make it dumber? waste everyone's life only.
oh i feel like im writing bao zhang bao dao. haha. shou xian, qi qi, jiu hou, zong er yan zhi. oh cheena. so much hw due.

oh yes. my school bag officially died today.
one min of slience-----------------------------

(one min later)
haha lame. surviving on my darling sling back for the moment till i get a nice new bag! =) oh yes happy birthday DJ!

rain rain rain rain rain rain rain rain rain rain rain

2006-04-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

i wonder why the heavens have so much tears too.. fitting in with my mood? probably. i hate thunder. it automates my arms up to my ears. i wonder how many times i've doing this same action over and over again! my poor arms. im so tired. i need to breathe. i guess i need breathing lessons. um cpr?? gah.

hmms

2006-04-04T23:28:00.000-07:00

oh tired tired. ok i know this has been almost late one week, but i couldn't find time to post.. so here goes!
happy birthday bimbo joneh!

back--

front--

back--

erm the front is too obscene lah.. want a close up? ask joneh!

reaction 1

reaction 2!

um.. accepting reality.....

and puting it on! (haha. no lah..)

um.. BIG HUG?

huggings again!

and again...

and again!

look at ongton. this is what happens when you hug too much!

yay we rock! and im quite sure joneh loved us.. haha.

i was gei-kiang and tried to upload alot of photos at one shot. waited an uber long time... but nothing came out.. bah! den had to reload one by one again! oh it's pass 12am! happy birthday jinzhi! =)

ssss.n.a.i.l

2006-04-03T20:24:00.000-07:00

wlao. shey and i rode a snail home today. the snail moved like 0.00000001 mm in 10 min! it took me a good 1 hr to get home while walking would only take 20 min. probability? bah math. my mom was shocked lah. she got stuck in the bus half hr and was rather annoyed. my sis got stuck 45 min. what a stuck day. boo to slow snailees. what am i saying.. snails are slow wad! slowy the snail. aiyah no link.

how?

2006-04-02T21:25:00.000-07:00

HOW??
bad news bad news bad news. i dont like bad news. bad news go away go away.

yesterday was a relief from all the tests in the week. other than having to wake up early to go tuition, dare was great. a pity i couldn't go for dinner. anyway. daryl and janey were crapping lame jokes i laughed so much. i wan chocosss so much, i think im killing my throat. but i dont care. i wan my chocos! who cares if i cant sing? i dont even really bother about whats going on in choir anymore. it's wasting my energy.

pls. pls do not keep reminding me that exams are coming. i dont like. i know i know. reality. but cant you just spare me from that mere thought?

thank you daddy god for favour. so much favour. just by being able to go to church. plus the little little things that happened today, in church and at rousy's. now that's something that makes me happy. =)

alright. oh yes. happy birthday evelyn and junyi! you are 16 lalala! oh heard about the joke you two played on laoda. haha. so funny. too bad i wasnt there. happy belated april fools everyone! =)

boo

2006-03-29T17:36:00.000-08:00

let me tell you that i hate. H.A.T.E to take bus to school! wlao. the lazy and ugly side of human nature left me desperate and i almost din make it alive to school. i hope daddy's car is fixed. if not im so not going to school tml. i never appreciated morning rides so much.

bio so rocks. it left me sleeping through almost the whole entire test. not enough sleep lah.. headaches are back. i think im hallucinating. i should hibernate. and guess what? it's only march! MARCH! how to survive the next 7 months? bah. i still think i irritate myself. study lah you lazy pok! coasts coasts here i come. =(

lalala

2006-03-28T18:21:00.000-08:00

oh so full. ok.. first things first. happy belated birthday to tiffy and my grand daddy!! and happy birthday ongton!

saturday celebrated my grand daddy's birthday.. thou shall not reveal his golden age. haha.

happy birthday grand daddy! =)

monday met in class to write on the greentea bottle.. polar's new hairstyle!

ongton's present! chocosss! food! pls ongton.. grow fatter!

after oh so many attempts of wrapping...

tada! be honoured ongton!

self-proclaimed rocker!

went swensens to makan.. i took this same shot like 5 times over! this one looks the most... um.. normal!

had two of this! sang birthday song twice.. but too bad dun have the music play loud loud! spoil..

ice-cream whoosh! wlao this two made me take like 6-7 shots of them cos they said they look stupid!

swensens! =)

look what ongton received.. still dare say you not childish? haha.

oh yes.. and ongton rocks! ongton rocks! (for today only.. people's bdae boy mah..) cos he wont get to hear it anymore le.. haha.

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2006-03-26T22:51:00.000-08:00

dun do that. you are hurting everyone. =(
bah to mood swings.
boo to chem.

pooi!

2006-03-23T22:20:00.000-08:00

you horrible gaypok. boo to you! whether im stupid or not has nothing, absolutely nothing to do with you. she talk of course i listen lah.. den wad, cover my ears ah? talk rubbish only leh! no brain! gaypok gaypok! and i dun care if you hate me. cause you are of no significance to me at all!

tired. sticky. smelly.
oh horrible long day. at the very least, we din have to run 12 rounds around the field! thanks to daddy God.. for letting it rain! soaking the field.. so no need to run! whee! but we still had to do 20 rounds aroung fitness station. but that's better than 12 rounds of field! hurray! =)

then the long horrible and boring day.. tired after all the stretching and butt wetting.. test... to sum up in one word, bad. oh well. but it's over le so.. wadever! boring long whole day. after school.. we become choir's personal servants. arranged and dumped lotsa stuff. there was so much rubbish lah! i think we make professional coolies. yawn.

tuition was.. random. at least no chemistry to do! hurray. pls, anything but chem. chemistry kills brains cells! it doesn't make any sense at all. boo to chem! got test tml agn.. haii.. jiayou!

hide

2006-03-21T20:24:00.000-08:00

cheena test was horrible.
lessons were bad.
chemistry just doesn't make sense. boo to exo and endo

-you won't get to see the tears i cry-

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2006-03-20T19:29:00.000-08:00

second post but wadever. there's just so many things i wanna tell so many people.. but i just dunno how to go about it and i dunno if it's the right thing to do.
-some things are best left unspoken i guess-

cheena... man's best enemy. bah

argh

2006-03-20T18:04:00.000-08:00

i am so not ok. i've been pissing myself off. i am annoyed by people who just can't keep those disgusting f words to themselves! sec one only leh! what do their parents teach them? wlao. mei you jia jiao. disgrace themselves only. dizzy spells are torturing me again. i am so not feeling ok. PISSED-

boo hoo

2006-03-19T19:47:00.000-08:00

dear dear.. today's the last day of hols! haii.. no more waking up at 10am anymore! =(

whole week was very very boring. yours truely was stuck at home mugging hw. bah. no life. tuition hw study.. how boring can life get?

anyway. stuff that brighten up my life... you! haha.

saturday's dare was great. daddy's presence was so strong again. dinner was.. gigglish? haha. de guys were so comical. coach, alene and i were saying that nick entertains others by entertaining himself! alene was having fun by peeling dead skin! eew. janey was grosssed out so was ethel. haha. had fun lah. went home.... study bio. eew. melvin was talking to janey bout bio stuff and i was like huh? den he said. you dunno one lah. i was like. no? i take bio! he gave me that 'are-you-sure' face then said, ok at least you dun tell me you take pure bio.. i was giggling so hard and told him i take pure bio. i think he alomst fell of his chair. i look so un-bioish meh? anyway i think bio doesn't make sense at all. bah.

oh yes.. tkx alene and her grace-full mummy and daddy for the ride back! was so timely! though i reached home late and my papa's face was a little black.. i din get scolding.. grace man! yay to parents in grace! amen! =) hmm the short walk in marina was fun eh? shopping shopping! haha.

today was a dizzy day.. i had dizzy spells the whole entire day. blur one whole day away.. feel bad.. trying to squeeze some ss into my brain...
ss whoosh!

spoil spoil

2006-03-17T23:10:00.000-08:00

my com doesn't allow me to view my blog! spoil spoil.. =(

uncertain

2006-03-16T22:30:00.000-08:00

i've never felt so scared before. im suddeny so uncertain of what will happen in the future.. what if i make mistakes and regret? i dun wanna grow up. i dun wanna make my own decisions.. i just wna be that little girl lost in her own dreamland...

random

2006-03-15T11:55:00.000-08:00

boring boring boring..
oh the hols are so uber boring! im getting bored just waking up everyday. im stuck at home wondering what hw theere is to compelete. oh someone gimmie a life.

anyway. monday was really fun. after the oh-so-boring choir pract, i went bugis to meet with dg ppl. apparently the only person i saw there was nic. alene said that she and coach went to get cake for kevin so i guessed we were celebrating his bdae. so nic and i went to get last min bdae pressie for him. we almost took forever and got sth for him. i dunno how to describe but yah. streamboat was great. the chilli thingy was so oily it started coagulating at the top! yuck. crapped and joked the whole night i think i laugh until i got sore throat. a little awkward situation afterwards.. but im thankful everything turned out fine. =)

yesterday.. choir pract as usual... learn some new song.. roads i think. yeh. shey was being so lame lah. wad cotton road, wo deng zhe ni hui lai.. LOL! she's so bimbotic lah. yes mega i agree with you. haha. after that went to watch big momma's house 2 with jiayu mama and shey. oh the small andrew boy was so so cute! he jumps down like nobody's business. i think if one day he try to commit sucide he won't die lor.

i wanna post photos! but got no photos to post. bah. bah. i dun understand what my cousie is doing. oh bah. i think im sounding like mehh mehh. BAAAHH!

=)

2006-03-12T20:39:00.000-08:00

maybe i should put away the bad stuff for a moment... and let my super Daddy settle them for me.. afterall.. he know all things and will never leave nor forsake me.. so why worry?

ok. shopping on friday was great! i BIG AMEN to all the discounts that shey and i caught! DA shou huo! ultimate yayness. i haven't felt so satisfied shopping this year.. i bit of disappointment cos i din get my shooooes and my 3 quarts.. but i loooove everything else i got! oh shop shop shop shop.. i wonder when i'll get to shop again..

saturday! woke up like uber early to go meet alene go habour front together. i was really early! yada yada.. the whole dare2play was really great. especially the praise and worship under the stars.. awww.. yes and for the highlight of the event.... *drumroll* i got sunbrunt! not tan.. but BURNT! red hot burnt. my arms are hurting red. oww oww.. so warning.. if you get near me.. do NOT touch my arms or i'll scream your head off! my dad, jingxuan and mr tan have done some damage already so... keep away from my arms! shoo shoo shoo! oh it's really red.. painpainpainpain.. fyi.. i have never ever been burnt in my life! never! i hope i dun start peeling. check out my feet.. got the slipper mark somemore.. black white! alene said her's look like rashes.. lol.

oh i smell dinner. dinner dinner dinner! lala! oh happy belated birthday apple and yun zhi and happy birthday ruixiang!

maybe

2006-03-09T16:20:00.000-08:00

maybe it's not the way it seems. maybe there's something behind it. maybe it just doesn't know. maybe it refuses to speak. maybe... things aren't that pure and simple afterall.

why doesn't one know how to appreciate? learn how to be appreciated? learn how to be satisfied? learn how to treasure? learn how to love? i think i need to teach myself. oh i dun even know what im thinking. maybe i should vanish or something.. guess that would solve all problems.. or maybe i should have never been there in the first place.. then there won't even be any problem.

why are people never satisfied? why do they always moan and complain? why is life just so unfair? how can someone stand being two-faced? why is there no enjoyment at all? what am i doing this for? why do i not get it?

x(

2006-03-07T20:17:00.000-08:00

i am not feeling well. i can hardly walk straight now. almost fainted on the way home. why isn't daddy in singapore when i need him most? oh bad timing. i hope i'll feel well enough to go school tml.

i officially announce my brain dead. pls observe one minute of silence for my dead brain. it clogged and chocked to death. oh poor brain.. rest in peace.

and i have a new bear/brother.. know as brother bear! hohoho! and fyi, i am not your mama jackie. you are my bimbo! fungus bimbo..

oh so much work.. awake brain ghost and get to work!
x(

BIG yawn

2006-02-27T18:14:00.000-08:00

oh tired tired. so shag today. geog test was a disaster. im kinda worried. oh bah. im so giddy i can't think straight. choir pract almost killed me. no, my black thumb almost killed me. my thumb is black! BLACK! pain pain pain.. it looks like it's rotting. ohh rotten thumb. eek. it's just freaky looking at it.

feeling so lazy now.. no mood to do anything, to think about anything. i just wna go sleep. see the huge pile of work i wan pekk le. my brother and sister and suddenly so into reading books recently i feel wierd just seeing them. oh the house of bookworms. i need to get out and like go crazy one day if not i'll like die of seeing nerds or sth. oh i need to shop. NEED to shop!

saw jacinta on the bus today and i realised that time really passes very quickly leh. like i was only sec 1 then.. jacinta was my siao lao shi.. blur blur a few years then suddenly going to leave ah le. i cannot catch up can.. im like still blur-ing. how i wish i can blur liddat forever. oh i need something. but i dunno what.. something that's missing.. oh im talking nonsense le. oxymoron! new word we learnt in bio. im super amused by this word. haha.

mmm! i smell dinner! lala~

feeling-less

2006-02-26T14:26:00.000-08:00

=(

im feeling.. feeling-less. it happens all the time.. im getting it today again. it happens when i think about alot of things, get mixed feelings then i become feeling-less. i think i woke up on the wrong side of the bed? i still had feelings yesterday? shopping was really fun and i was high on looking forward to 10march..

after that i was having a terrible migrane and lotsa of thoughts started coming back. school, family, friends, life, blah. im confused and scared. maybe i shld become invisible or something. like the invisible man with the pink nose.

my mom thinks i have another world of my own. she says i always daydream. but what's wrong with day-dreaming? i think i day-dream then will start thinking about alot of rubbish.

i finally learn to appreciate my diary. it's super handy when you can't put everything on public blog, when you can't tell everything to anyone and just no one bothers. oh bah. all the best for geog test tml!

bah

2006-02-22T22:41:00.000-08:00

maths can be a killer sometimes! it kills brain cells! i think i killed more brain cells than mormor can ever bite. i almost lost my brain doing pnc what shey and ween call perm and comb. oh craps tml's math test it a 100% for ca! im so freaking worried. tml flag raising half mast cos some great man in singapore passed away. and antm's postphoned to 11pm so im blogging first.

sorry shey i nvr go online send you song cos daddy took the com the songs in the com. i'd better pass tml's test if not i killed brain cells for nothing. heard tml's test gna be really cheem.. hope i'll pass!

overally.. today i was boring day.. other than some coach coming back to talk. and i passed my lit test! and did quite ok for chem. yay!

oh.. antm's starting soon! lala!

C.R.O.W!!!!

2006-02-17T15:57:00.000-08:00

how suay can you get? people say that if you see a dead crow in the morning you'll have bad luck the whole day or sth. lemmie tell you... NO! i'd rather see dead crows everyday! ok maybe not. if you don't get the point yet... you haven't got it cos i haven't say yet! ok that's not the point. after kopping a sip of milo from shey.. i boarded bus 67. guess what. there was a crow! a big huge fat ugly horrible CROW on the bus!!! i almost scream. of all places to be! wlao. i sat right at the front, hoping the crow won't get there.. but i was awfully wrong! that dumb dumb crow flew all the way to the front! and right beside me! luckly it din attack my fries. i freaked out and ran to the back of the bus. thank goodness it was only a short ride! i was so malu can! bad, BAD crow day! the stupid crow kept jumping at the window panes, trying to get out! and i thought crows were blind.. oh whatever it was trying to do.. it freaked me out. i do NOT like crows!!

anyway. met shey at tamp to watch movie! my first ever movie this year! THE PINK PANTHER! so nice! it was so so so amusing! especially the part where the two big men started dancing! oh they were so so funny. and they looked super cartoon while they were trying to camouflage.. haha. i shall not say anymore.. go watch it!

after the movie we went kgai gkai ard tm and cs. went to ebase and i saw this 3 quarts i like alot alot! but i was still thinking whether to try anot so looked ard. when i decided to try.. the 3quarts NOT THERE LE! you'd say i shld've asked for one.. but it was on sale! only left one piece! that was when i saw this lady walk out of the dressing room.. holding my 3quarts! which became hers in like 10 seconds. boohoohoo... so so so sad! shey saw sth she liked oso.. but got no size le. so we both got no shou huo today.. shey wants her taitai bag..! taitai wanna-be cannot find any taitai bag that she likes. aww.. somebody be nice and give birth to one for her!? then she can put MORMOR inside!

oh last night was one dreamy night. i dreamt about the kl trip! but i forgot who i saw in my dream and what happened le.. haha. all i remembered was it was in kl.

mimi! haha. mimi is so funny! everyone shld make friends with mimi! learn how mimi walks, runs and jumps! wheee! oh MIMI! LOL.

2006-02-14T10:23:00.000-08:00

bahh.. i shall not post pictures that often anymore.. i can't even use the com like once a week now! now in com lab having bio lesson.. slackkkk.. i was so so so disappointed i couldn't finish up my previous post.. the photos haven't post finish. oh bah.

this morning was really BORING. thanks to baboon for making a long speech and for making me fall alseep. half the geog lesson was gone!

anyway. congrats to becky and shu wen! so happy for you both..

oh some people just worry too much. some people don't see your real intentions and some just get the wrong message. i realise i dun know wad im talking about.. bahh. everyone's worrying about Os.. can it pls pass quickly? or can i just skip this year? oh bah bah bah BAH! im becoming more annoying.

oh anyways.. happy birthday daddy..

and HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY! to all lovable peeps, un-lovable ones, monkeys, donkeys, chimpanzees! lala!

2006-02-07T20:15:00.000-08:00

this whole week's been uber busy. next wk's valentines' day! i was excited.. but after all the bad news happening on valentines' day, oh i got no mood le.. but, will still be giving out pressies! yay. speaking of valentines' day pressies.. when i was still high, i told cousie bout giving all my friends pressies on vals' day.. and she told my uncle.. my uncle said im crazy.. give my love to everyone.. well.. can't be helped.. i love all my friends! =)

today's chinese test sucked. i think i won't do well again. scared. suppossed to present eng today.. but the lessons spoil.. so tml. the school management cannot make it can. they change the timetable we dunno one. oh bah!

shall blog about cny! ok late one wk le.. blame it on the tests!

CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

chinese new year eve! cos reunion dinner was here, so had to decorate up my house make granny happy. after tidying up my bedroom, very happy. so went to help mama with the decorations.

this fu thing was very uber big. bigger than my head! and the worst thing was, the whole thing was covered in glitter! what my mama calls kim kim. i got kim-ded all over my arms and fingers and even my face! so since i already haf glitter all over me, my mama had me put up all the other decorations with glitter.. so being chorlor, i got glittered even more. shiny me! my brother was argueing that the fu be hung straight. i tried to explain to him why it shld be hung upside down but he wouldn't listen, so i heck him le.

after trying to get most of the glitter of me, i saw this on the table! wow! it's the laziest way to chop up an apple. i was so so so amused by it.. that day shey and i went to ikea, saw this cutter and shey said she din know people could be that lazy!

after the steamboat dinner.. we celebrated my cousie, nigel's 7th bdae! yes it's right on chinese new year eve! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL!

haha! nigel kena attacked by evil attacker... IVANA! creamy nose! nigel's so cute rite? haha!

my younger cousies! minus keegan and nigel. from the left.. ivana, my sis isabel, claudia, my brother caleb, tivona and right in front, rannie.

some photos we took that night...

i spent the whole night buffing my nails.. i declare myself horrible at buffing nails! boohoo

the image was rather blur cos my aunty's hand shake. i was wearing the earings shey gave me on christmas! i couldn't move my head properly cos the long thingies would bang against my face!

went to uncle's house.. bainian and collect angpaos..

shey! this photo's uploaded for ya. silver taitai bag.

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i dun understand why people can be so so so unreasonable. when i studying like some stupid idiot, you keep silent. not a single word of praise. i merely started using the com and you acuse me of using it the whole day and chatting wif friends when i was not! i sacrificed so many days of com to study le. im going crazy soon and you hurl all these stupid worthless acusations at me. you think im not bothered that i have a major exam this year? think you are the only one who's worried? please please stop it.. i really don't want this coming from you. is that the only way we can communicate? i can't take it any more. go away.

-i guess im just a failure to you-

2006-02-03T21:23:00.000-08:00

i miss singing luk luk
i miss the good old days
i miss the times we shared
i miss being innocent
i miss daydreaming
i miss wishing on stars

why do all good things have to end?

-silence-

tai tai tai tai tai tai tai!

2006-01-27T20:32:00.000-08:00

[i vowed not to let anyone see the sad side of me ever again. at least not on my blog. so i'll only post the fun stuff that happened. oh life can be so depressing.]

okok! lotsa photos today! see until yall shuang! cny celebration was so so so so so boring! partly cos i was sitting right at the back. anyway. i took the whole night to decide what to wear, with a little fashion advice from becky. haha but apparently i din take any of it. reach school go ongton's class supposed to record shan hu hai, but ended up talking crap. his class ppl so cute. we sit at the back den dey all gather outside their class like we're some evil invaders liddat. haha. oh today's FLATTY'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FLATTY!!!! xinjun's voice spoil, or rather he dun wan sing so in the end nvr record le. assembly alot of char bors were making noise cos they were wearing skirts and had to sit on the floor. ah luckly i din wear skirt, wanted to leh.

back in class, yingen was taking candid shots of ppl with her camera! so i took photos of her as well!

YINGEN TAN TAN TAN!

oh yes and our class got 3rd for the cny notice board competition! hurray! 4C06 rocks! i think our notice board is veh nice. haha. i din help! whoops.

YAY! our beautiful notice board!

oh i was experimenting to make the classroom move in my photo. and kinda succeded! look! everything looks like it's moving except caho!

artistic!

i was bored in class so decided to try another artistic photo! haha. looked rather crap. shey's phone, mine, yingen's and caho's on top! bo liao..

yujie was wearing alot of bracelets on her hand. i thought it was so so so cool! so decided to take a photo! nice rite!

i met becky. she claims that i miss her! cos i was messaging her during the concert cos i coulsn't see anything and was feeling bored. ok lah miss you lah! haha. after the concert, shey, caho and i went to plaza sing! i made an exception and decided to have lunch at kfc. my phone was safe with me. haha. then after walking into a million shops, we went to spotlight! again i was boliao and took photo of the sign.

went in and saw geen hats! translate into chinese? DAI LU MAO! ahahahs. the three of us were so so so amused that we decided to take photo! after about 10 unsucessful shots... this one looks the most decent!

DAI LU MAO!

then they went on to try party hats! look at caho! she was laughing so hard.

then we saw a whole chunck of furys.. what i call mao maos! look! so colourful!

then look what shey did!

TAI TAI WANNA BE!

oh speaking of that, shey kept whinning the whole time that she wanna get a tai tai shoulder bag! so we were looking for one. but all not tai tai one! den caho was talking about tai tais. she said:" alena's tai tai gonna be, shey's tai tai wanna be and i'm tai tai never be!" wah i isurely got tai tai one lor. tai tai talk! den we were talking about real and fake tai tais! HAHAHA!

ok back to spotlight. more photos!

caho's heart shaped "earing!"

caho and me trying to act ke lian! lu mao again with two white bears! we were attempting to look like sick patients! HAHA!

does this pose look familiar?? haha. lemmie refresh your memory!

lalalala! hahahaha!

caho and i being spstic! caho was supposed to be empress dowager or sth and i was the servant fanning her! but it ended up looking like i was trying to wack her. the fan looks like one of the chinese shows long time ago one. this dunno wad gong. haha.

shey.. tai tai wanna-be!!

caho and i were amused by this santa! cos it looks like it has a broken leg and it looks rather distored. SANTA SPOIL!

not one mama.. but.. 1, 2, 3, 4 mamasss!!!! wheee!

we wanted shey to pose like these mamas! budden she kept saying she look spastic dun wan! ahhh. spoil spoil! SHEY LOVES MAMASSS! i have another spastic photo of shey. but i shall be nice... muahahahahaha!

caho and shey with nice vintage caps! hahahaha. we were at samuel and kevin looking for a bottom for shey. decided to try caps! shey say dey look like so society gang lao das! LOL!

me with cap! hahahaha. i dun like to wear caps. pose pose!

we went to marina square after that to look for stuff. shey was looking for skirts for chinese new year! saw this really sweet jean skirt! told shey to try! caho agreed it was nice too! we are shey's perfect fashion consultants! wheeeee!

i think my com's lagging le. means no more photos! haha. on the way back from city hall, i saw a green feather stuck to my bag! remember the green mao maos in spotlight? haha! caho said they follow me all the way back! attempted to take photos of the green feather! haha. super amused by it. tired like more than 5 times to take a nice photo of the feather! haha.it's just a really tiny one. whee feathers! haha spastic. shop until super tired. took bus back fell asleep and almost missed my stop! had chinese tuition and blah.

tml is chinese new year eve! steamboat at my house! i have to start clearing up my room le. haha. i saw really nice earings today! but din buy. ahhh! shall attempt to take more photos tml! lalalala! oh finally done. i think i've been on this post for two hours. it's 1015 pm now! haha. oh yes! i forgot something. SHADES! caho and i found shades that we really liked today! shey leh? must find oso! den we can buy together! den go out act mature! 16 bucks a shade! 30 for two! i forgot the shop. i sound like im promoting shades! oh hahaha. shey is still desperate bout buying her tai tai bag. i wan my earings! i need to hibernate. ah no link.

2006-01-21T13:41:00.000-08:00

tired tired tired. yesterday was so much fun! and very tiring. hmms. lemmie recap b4 i post some photos! yay. school was boring.. exept that pearl was acting cute! caho act cute oso.. but i din manage to get a photo of it. so here's pearl! with caho laughing! tada!

PEARL ACT CUTE! according to her, this act cute skill was taught by.. JACKIE! the chao act cute one! haha.

after school... rush rush to music rm. um some stuff happened.. yada yada. i wasn't feeling veh well. totally spoilt my mood cos i was quite high! i was saying hi to everybody i knew ytd. gave out scarfs.. took my shoes frm jax.. had pract a while in music rm den we off to vch! in the bus.. tenors and sops one bus, altos and basses one bus. candeh was complaining cos she sat beside sng! anyways on our bus, minqi, shey, ongton, ween and i were singing shan hu hai! lalala! even the bus uncle started looking at us, den ween think wrong! lol.

ongton was trying to tweecee, budden the metal pole block. haha. high high damn high!

reached vch. blur blur there for like 10 min den were brought up to this "room" where we wld put our stuff, it wasn't even a room lah. just like some pathetic corridoor. anyway. had like 2 rounds of rehearsal and were supposed to get changed and put makeup and stuff while tkss was having rehearsal. dey rehearse finish veh fast den like duh da gals obviously need more time to change and stuff lah. the tkss gals found us in their rms and they were like wlao! our stuff inside leh! den minqi was like but is ur teacher allow us to use e rm one mah.. blah blah blah. so mean leh dey all. anyway. ran around tying the gals hair with ribbons, pinning scarfs.. re-tying ties.. i would have died if not for shey. thank you so so so much for helping me! i pin scarfs no skill one. so shey and i were the last to get our makeup on, scarfs tied and blah. during dinner, ween was trying on the guys tie and she took a spastic photo!

SPASTIC WEEN!

oh so funny.the combined song with tkss was rather boring. cos like i couldn't see mr kwei and the whole stage was so cramped up. den everywhere ard me was blasting i cldn't hear myself. anyway. wait a VERY long time before we went on stage to perform again. i enjoyed luk luk the most! so fun so fun. i nvr enjoyed myself on stage so much. i think i know the reason why we sang so well. probly cos there was no sress wadsoever, we were just guest choir! oh but i still think we rocked. den after tat ween, shey, candeh and i went back to clear up cos we saw alot of rubbish. went back and realised the sec threes alr help clear up le. SO SWEET! thank you so so much! so the four of us went to toilet change into greenteas. i was frantically trying to remove my makeup. i nvr bring remover! bah. oh den shey heard yongpeng! so we started "dancing"! YONGPENG YONGPENG YONGPENG YONGPENGPENG AaA! high again. haha. saw mr yong! said we sang well. mr toh and mr kwei said we did very well too! oh so happy. den we were so so so high walk out of vch anyhow walk. dunno walk until where den dey decided to go starbucks eat. lets see. jonneh, ongton, xj, joel, randall, candeh, flats, jiayu bdae girl, shey and me! we wanted to eat at starbucks but no space. bah. so we got drinks and went outside and sit. suddenly shey and joel wan "go toilet", pull ongton along. dey went for the longest time and we wait until very very sian. this is what we were doing while waiting!

i was boliao so took a photo of the starbucks bottle. xj was even more boliao. he was trying to show jiayu and randall a magic trick so started wacking the bottle on the floor!

yes and ongton shey and joel FINALLY came back. with a cake for jiayu!! wheee! started singing bdae song for her. den jiayu din wna bring the cake home so we were trying to persude her. den shey was like ey joel! tell her the name for the cake! some aunty annie's chewy duno what. haha. to convince jiayu to eat the cake and bring it home, joel was like, the cake is i choose one hor! how can u not eat! den jiayu, being mesmerised by joel agreed to bring e cake home. LOL! here's the chewy cake!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYU!

meanwhile, ongton saw candeh and flatteh hitting each others leg. so he was like ey shey! we follow them hit oso! lol. it wasn't very successful cos shey kept laughing! haha.

took train back. saw joanne. very very long time senior. start talking rubbish. joel and randall were talking about no link stuff. haha super funny.. blah blah blah. reached home at 1215am.
im so so super tired now. today wasn't a very good day. blah.

2006-01-19T18:16:00.000-08:00

bah. today's a horrible day. im freaked out, scared, pissed and tired. bah bah bah. the only thing tat made my day was going out with xj, ongton, jonneh, shey and candy eat lunch. other than that, the whole day was crap. someone kill me and i'll love you.

2006-01-18T05:20:00.000-08:00

i have so many things to blog about today. no photos. boos.school started very very boring-ly. bah. the talk was kinda useless, e speaker ended up contradicting himself. oh i wasnt even listening. first lesson, math. test. i managed to finish. i din even study for it. ok. next was geog. felt lost the whole lesson cos missed school ytd and mrs tan taught alot ytd. i was like wad wad wad? din get anything. bah. spoil mood. last lesson sel. i wasnt listening at all. blah. after school argh. im very very very sad. chinese test was horrible. and i realised im very stupid. i realised jonneh's chinese is veh good. i'll fail. im like 100% sure. BAH! i dun wan take results tml. i'll spoil.

jonneh and shey wait for me. went to bugis shop shop. my mood was much better. i realised that shopping and eating chocs make me happy. =) ok. shey and i reached bugis and had lunch at macs. we started looking for the new mall ICON. we asked e security guard he duno. so we went to the control station ask e uncle. he siad exit by some exit c so we walk there. then realised it was raining. bah. so decided to shop in parco. hmm. let's see. we bought a tank top at U2 each. yay! den later when the rain stopped, we went to ask a sales girl for directions. and we finally reached the ICON mall! oh i tell you we were so so so high when we found e mall. but it was super disappointing. there was practically NOTHING at ICON! and we had to climb stairs to get to e diff levels! NO LIFT! eeeeks. we were so so super tired. saw 4 sec3s. they were so cute. while we were crossing e road dey were screaming across e road! so amusing.

went back mrt there. my mouth itchy so got chocolate lapis to eat. den we saw muah chee! so so so tempting. so we got a box each. de aunty give us so much i eat until wna puke. den in de end din eat finish. went to orchard. i almost kena kiap by the mrt the tap card thing! cos the two red 'doors' open at different timings, so den one close before the other! den i walk through that time kena kiap! i shock until cannot scream. i like stun for 5 sec. haha anyway. went orchard. bought bracelets! yes im nice, accompany shey buy! im broke.

den we went to pacific! shey wanted to get bag frm rip curl. but i dun like e bags there. she also nvr fund anything nice, so went to mambo see see look look. den this really nice nice nice purple bag caught my eye! i told shey to try it.i was her bag consultant aka bag carrier for today! we like crap in the shop for like 29 min plus before deciding to buy it! i rated the bag 9 upon 10! minus one mark cos it was quite high. but decided to plus marks for the bag being purple! haha. so shey bought it in the end. yay! we oso got a pressie for flats! ohh so happy! de sales uncle was so nice! haha. he very funny. cos we decided on a pressie for flats so ask e uncle go help us get new stock. den he walk to the wrong section! den i was looking at him giving him e question mark look, den he look at me and stuck out his tongue and smiled. so cute i almost died laughing! den the funniest part was the receipts. on this big big receipt wrote mama1 mama1 cos we bot two items. den shey and i laugh until pekk. we started crapping about mamas and papas! den did some really wierd additions. haha. no link.

den went to topshop at see clothes. i saw this 'blouse' i really liked! but it cost like 53 bucks! oh i almost fainted. i kept telling shey i wanted the blouse but too ex. bah bah bah! oh speaking of bah, at ICON right, there was this song playing 'oh my lover', shey heard as 'oh my lava' and i heard 'oh my baa baa!' hahaha. den there was this part i think was 'lalalalala' i heard 'baabaabaabaabaa!' den i told shey, finally there's someone who sings ur language! lol. den went to watsons to buy facial masks for fun to play. haha.we went to coffee club get drinks. i had hot choco and shey had some rambutan drink. sweet sweet one.

took train to city hall. squeezed into the train, and had the most horrible experience of all. eeeks, traumatised. i shall not elaborate. it was VERY VERY disgusting.

shey and i were talking bout alot of things, some of which made me feel very very sad. i realised alot of things oso. and that we have lost some people. some people became really insensitive, and some are just nice. we can never have everything the way we want as much as we want it to be. life would go on but how long more? i dunno wad im talking about. i realised that humans can be really selfish at times and it's hard to be a human. it's hard to keep in place. oh bah im rubbishing le.

talk about nicer stuff. hmms. we're going shopping again soon! jiayu's and flatty's bdaaes are coming! valentines day is next month! chinese new year is coming! i cant think of any nicer things. oh i wna do the seven lame things le. shall do it!

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Rules: Express your Love for SEVEN and get others to know more about you. ;D Copy and Paste the following into your own blog and complete all SEVEN bullets of the SEVEN questions. Then, pick SEVEN ppl to pass it on! Have fun!

S E V E N Things that make me Smile =) :
-sexylucas!
-chocos!
-shopping!
-nice ppl that smile at me
-lame convos online
-letters from ppl i hardly hear from
-crapping!

S E V E N Ways to Win my Heart (Right Now):
-gimmie chocos!
-alot of money to shop!
-sponsor my phone!
-be my personal chauffer!
-shut my mom and brother up
-um...
-ummm...?

S E V E N Things I Believe In:
-im an idiot
-the world is round?
-shey is a bimbo
-im gna fail chinese
-chocos make me happy
-shopping makes me happy
-i bluf myself

S E V E N Things I'm Afraid Of :
-mom's nagging
-f9s
-too much hw
-heights! high high
-not letting me watch antm
-not letting me shop!
-close people leaving me

S E V E N Things I Do Everyday:
-sleep
-slack
-eat
-breathe
-bathe
-go online
-yawn

S E V E N People I Want to See Right Now:
-shey
-yingen
-joel
-weiyang
-ongton
-ween
-xinjun

next 7 to do this : anyone who bothers to!

2006-01-17T15:43:00.000-08:00

din go to school today. woke up today with a horrible headache. i couldn't even walk properly and the whole room spun like 10 times around me. i was sweating like crazy and i couldn't really move. felt so so so sick. decided not to go to school in the end. slept until 11am. woke up feeling much better but head still a little pain. did some spring cleaning...

im trying to post some photos. hope it works!

had dinner at celebrate mom's bdae on sunday. happy bdae mummy!

yesterday was joel's bdae! happy birthday joel! this is the nice cake that ween and shey went to get for him.

birthday boy's mr popular! (i had a hard time trying to combine e 4 photos into one! finally.)

after so many photos i took, i like this the best! the most scandelous photo of all! shey and joel! perfect smile!

shey and ween! they were trying to act fierce. LOL! ween suceeded.. shey.. ahahaha. she can nvr act angry. that's why she cannot join ed! no link.

birthday boy kena rape! haha! after that he was stacked by jonneh and bala! jonneh said that joel not nice to stack, mr yong more fun! cos mr yong got more energy to retaliate!

yay group photo! i realised that jiayu looks lilke she's lying on top of me! but actually is not leh! haha. she just happened to tilt her head?

oh my goodness! this the first time i actually successfully posted so many photos on my blog! yay! i feel a sense of achievement. haha! i took 1 an a half hr to finish! phew. i missed today's chinese test. bah.

2006-01-15T14:52:00.000-08:00

yay i changed my blog skin! one year le. haha. i'll change my blogskin every year! (if i haf stamina lah) i like the chocos on e template! so so tempting. haha. i shall go do hw after this. shall attempt to finish everything tonight. hai. hope i dun die!

today woke up and rushed around the house to get ready for church. apparently we were late until even the overflow rooms got no space for us. so my mom and brother went to e foyer see e screen, den isabel and me went into e auditorium to get seats on the floor. half way during worship, a lady usher approached me. this was wad she said:" excuse me, um you are wearing a short skirt. would you like to take a seat on the chair if i can find you one?" i was like oh yes oh yes please! i tell you i can't express how thankful i was to the usherer! i would haf be most uncomfortable if i had to sit to on the floor in that skirt. haha. thank you thank you. when my sis found out. she was mad. not fair nt fair! she was saying. den she wacked my head. ouch. irritating leh. hit my head for wad. i oso not wear skirt on purpose wad, how i know overflow rm got no more seats le?

my mom was in a horrible mood cos of my brother. actually wanted to go tamp get shoes for my sis cos she chinese hew yr got no shoes wear. den my brother refused to go. de he fa da shao ye pi qi! veh irritating leh! u see his face feel like slapping him. den later at lunch i accidentaly stained my shirt with sauce went toilet wash. when i came back, start having e hiccups and drank away a whole bottle of water. den the hiccup stopped. my mom was pissed and asked me why i drink finish all e water? she wanted so save for my brother. i hiccup of course drink water lah! den she asked my sis for water. my hiccup stopped le so i dun wan. den mom was like saying now give you water u dun wan drink! my hiccup stop le mah! den wad u expect me to do? i din wna argue with her. den she said somrthing to me but i couldn't hear. so i ask her to repeat.. den she got pised saying i annoy her. wlao. after that i nvr say anything le.

took a taxi home. my brother and sister were fighting in the taxi. i was so irritated by them, dey shout at each other in e taxi lah. dey not paiseh one meh? got taxi uncle in there can, not as if they own the taxi lah. bah. fell asleep cos i was so tired. reached home and had a piece of cake. yummy. felt much better. looked for blogskin! yay. its nice and pink. =) my mmom nagging at me to study again. lalah. keep telling me i cnt control myself WHOLEDAY use the comm. blah lah. i just orh her. dun wan answer back le. no mood to explain myself. now i haf to start on my chinese. bah. and attempt to give birth to a zuo wen.

2006-01-14T21:29:00.000-08:00

hmms. blogging again cos ongton asked me too. haha. im veh veh tired. today was an uber long day. ok. last night chat with ongton half way i think he fell asleep. then shey was concerned if he could wake up today anot. and she volunteered me to give him wake up call. -.-'' being nice, i called him like at 7am after taking a shower. din answer, so tried again. yay got answer..! lol. took my own sweet time.. left my house like at 750 am. strolled to the bus stop.. reached bedok at 805. shey was later! so ongton and jonneh got impatient, so decided to go library return ongton's book first. he's renovation his room i think. i wna go see jonneh's house! sounds cool!

okays. so we wanted to go to long john for breakfast. apparently we walked the wrong way den had to like walk back. haha. two bimbos were.. messing each other's hair and screaming? bimbos mah. at long johns eat until veh full. apparently shey got bored so she took a packet of sugar and made the word 'bimbo' on the table, with an arrow pointing towards jonneh! LOL! den ongton said he thirsty so went giant get drink. he wanted some osmathus drink but dun haf. den jonneh started talking bout stds. lol! no link leh. den while waiting for ongton to pay, shey and jonneh were crapping about the giant dinosaur on the wall. den jonneh started pulling shey's bag. looked wrong can. took a cab to siglap south.. pract was rather tiring. yawn. had meeting after that. yada yada.

went for lunch with sexylucas! 9 of us. took a very very long time to decide where to eat. ended up in macs. after that went walk walk, ongton, jonneh, xj, candeh, ween and me. blah blah blah. den went home. eh no. went to sheng shiong to get chocolates and sweets for cousies. and for myself. heehee. de queues were super long and cos i had not enough cash, took an even longer time to find a counter that accepts card. ok. reached home at 4 plus. my sis made this 'cake-like' thing with sushi, stuck candles on a paper plate and sang bdae song. so cute. i kopped some of e sushi. haha.. yum yum.

at 530 my mom dressed up all nicely. wore this pink sleveless dress with this um 'mini jacket', with much advice from her fashion consultant, yours truly! haha. she looked really sweeet with make up on.. couldn't decide what shoe to wear, so i chose this classy black one. cos all e other shoes looked too casual. she borrowed my black star necklace. so nice so nice. i think my mama is pretty! =) she went for her company's dinner. she take mrt there leh! all e way to jurong area! i was like what!?! wear until so dainty take mrt? take cab lahh! she dun wan. haha, i think my mom's pro leh. she's going in heels lor. i think if i had to take an mrt to jurong in heels i'll just die half way. leg break. i think the heels will break oso. den i'll end up crawling. no link. hope she takes lotsa nice photos for me to see! =)

anyways. i had my dinner at 630. i was feeling so so sian din even fell like going to tuition le. so i just called mr tan den he ask me stay at home and do chem! i tell you i do until i fall asleep. bah. i dun even know wad im writing. needed a breather so went down to clubhouse there with aunty. today at e poolside having some chinese new year 'sale' so many stalls set up, like pasamalam liddat. lelong lelong! my hse ppl here all veh enthu. sell accessories, clothes, food, bags.. yada yada. it's still going on even now! alot of ppl downstairs. i din see anything that interest me. so bought titbits and went home.

tml daddy need to work so we hafta go church on our own. i think tml shld be gg out for dinner celebrate mama's bdae! yay. yucks, i think of that pile of hw not done and all e tests that i have next week i feel like pukking. screw all de tests! i know im sounding vulgar.. but why everything at one shot? im still human.. bah.

ok ongton is waiting for my post. haha. sorry took so long lah. ppls brain work slower mah.

2006-01-13T21:43:00.000-08:00

today's a horrible day. so much rubbish happened today. bah. school assembly was rubbish. we had to like sit on wet floor? i was so freaking disgusted. can't we like just stand? dumb. maths totally spoiled my whole day. i hate p and c! gah! i din get a freaking thing and spent like half the lesson on one short question! argh. i think 13 friday is a horrible day for me. my brain spoil. shey was as pissed. i almost died figuring out how to solve the questions.

we were 20 min late for chem lab and ms tay was kinda pissed. rushed through titration experiment and went back class for ss. late oso. i fell asleep during lesson leh. so shi bai. i cant stand it when teachers use e projector or the ohp. anyway once the light off, i switch off too. and fall asleep. bah. ms kartini is nice. tkx for not keeping us back during recess! i was super hungry. english lesson was total crap lah. shey and elisha just kept rubbishing. so funny. i had no inspiration at all so just wrote crap. chinese lesson was ok. cher talked bout some chinese author zhang ai ling and her background for the whole lesson. she mentioned that zhangailing's greatgrandfather got some great title in the chinese dunno wad dynasty time. den she said, ta bei feng wei han lin. melissa, amanda and chinmeng started giggling. lol.

after that evt was just pure rubbish. the meeting was not to ask for our opinion lah. more to order us what to do. we stand in ur shoes, den who's gna stand in our's? what's the whole point of having a vp if lets say the p and vp quarrel? dey wld just ignore each other all e same wad. and it would be worse! it's not about the name lah. im fine with any onther suggestion. i think it wld be alrite.. everything except the p and vp thing. it's just got no link. other than helping the teachers to decide who to call? so what if it works for council? it's not the same wad. how can compare liddat? and how does having a p and vp help the choir to improve? the choir would look up to both Ps wad. as we are rather immature... as if the choir would have girls/guys conflict at this age?!? not as if we would think so much! and besides, having to have to carry all the blame and burden alone.. wouldn't it be very taxing and tiring? selfish? i doubt so. senseless talk.

the only thing to happy about.. is that my mom's bdae is tml!!! yay! im so so so happy. yay mummy! happy bdae to you! =)

2006-01-11T23:29:00.000-08:00

just finished watching american's next top model. i shall try to take less than an hour on this post. i love ANTM! i like jayla! i think she's really pretty. i like the way nic "shakes" her head when she does her catwalk! and i think bre got lotsa character when she walks. sarah got eliminated this episode.. i feel veh sad for her. she cried so hard leh. cassandra is rather dumb leh. she gave up her dream for an inch of hair! oh please. how many millions if ppl wna be in her place? wasted wasted! haha.

last night was a horrible night. cos geog hol hw was due today, so i started piaing last night. after pasting all e article, which took me like half an hour, (i work slowly) i was working on e nice cover page and content page of my hw. i searched the net for a nice "geographical photo" and found a nice one. i got my whole family to help me choose e font for e cover page till my dad got fed up wif me. whoops. anyways. i started writing officially at 8pm. article 1... i wrote like crazy with only like 5 min break to go pee? FINALLY i reached article 15. (i skipped no 12 cos i din understand e article) 11.30pm. i wrote for 3.5 hrs. my hand spoil. my brain died. i think i lost more brain cells than minqi could ever lose. =P

okok. backtrack. woke up early in e morning.. did tuition hw. went for a very very heavy breakfast. i ended up eating my brother's share cos he was "too full". BIG burp. went home. pia chinese tuition hw. went for tuition at 130pm. did compo. boring. the topic veh hard to write so i just anyhow do. cher said bu li xiang. haii. mummy and daddy went to ikea! lets see what they bought. 20 chairs!(reunion dinner is at my house!) one chair for 5 bucks. um. a dustbin for my room.. i new clock. i think that's all. i wan go ikea too! daddy said got alot of nice stuff that wld interest me. i wan go i wan go. dad said make an appointment wif him he drive me there. yay =)

today was a rather boring day.. yada yada. except that we got held back in school for like almost one hr? bah. thank to our most wonderful dm. bah. rachel and i were joking. ahahaha. veh funny. cos of that, reached mrs cheong's hse late. when she found out that whole school kena "detained", she was like wah u all secondary school still treat u all like primary school kids? lol. left her hse at 6plus? went to tm to get files and other stuff. i bought worms! and chocolates. yum yum. bringing worms to school to eat tml. finished all e chocolate! =P shop until half way isabel tired, so she went home first. i shop shop till bout 730 and reached home ard 8 plus. veh veh tired.

'tsunami' is still on. kena cheated. pooi.
oh yes. go read minqi's tag board!! veh veh veh funny! ahahaha. "minqi, do you ever feel lonely? where no one cares about you?" LOL! awws minqi. polarchuck changed his blogskin! so so so cute! go see go see! haha. oh yes. and shey's specs kena "chewed"! spoil! caho and yingen thinks she look veh guai in her old ones.

tml haf alot of boring lessons. bah. anither few hrs of sectionals i guess, i need to go tution tml. if not will kena scolding. i think i'll sehh. bah. now's 12 am exact! whee! i made it in half an hr! =)

2006-01-09T23:04:00.000-08:00

rainy rainy day today! shey is (was) sick. so didn't attend lessons today. crawled up to 5th floor with ween. nearly died due to shortness of breath. no stamina. cos shey wasn't here for lesson, elisha sat at her seat, which is next to me. first lesson.. bio. i almost din get what mdm ho was saying at all. evt sounded alien. oh yes. our class haf new GREEN curtains today. obiang colour. cos mdm ho closed e curtains during lesson to use projector, elisha was whinning that he couldn't see the clock tower! haha. so funny. maths lesson was next.. did class work den started msging shey. she said she wanted to come school to pass jax letter and cos she miss joel! haha.

after that got no teacher come in. we thot was sel budden since no cher come in nobody care lah. started crapping wif chao dey all.. den took alot of spastic photos! i realised im pro at taking candid shots! haha. laugh like crazy. oh yes did i mention tat caho jiejie looks super gu niang wif her ears pierced? she looks so so sweet! kept terrorizing pearl bout piercing ears.. haha. actually not painful one lah.

recess was.. anyway. after recess mrs sally lai came in and realised she missed her lesson (the lesson tat we tot was sel) blah blah blah. geog was. ok. chinese was boring. fell asleep half way. so tired. school ended then had choir pract. sectionals. super boring. or rather cos i was paining the whole time. bah. kena shoot. shall not elaborate. walked down chang chen wif ongton and shey. got nice chocos to eat. yays. shey almost zhong tou jiang. bird shit fell like 2 cm alway from her! den we kena honked by some red car. ongton was like 'red car big ah! next time i buy bulldozer run you down!' hahaha.

isabel's sick leh. her fever come back again, she still reading her book. bu kui shi bookworm leh! hope she gets well soon. take care! 15 min to hari raya! selemat hari raya! lalalalala

2006-01-08T18:42:00.000-08:00

boosey! nice day for slping.. it's been raining the whole day! just woke up an hour ago.

woke up at like 7 this morning. big yawn. send my sis and mom to simei comunity center? yah. to collect her scholarship. my sis forgot to bring her letter. she was like stoning when my mom asked her where the letter was. my dad got impatient cos we were gna be late for church. so left them there and went to fetch my granny and granpa. my granny realised that my mom and sis not here and asked why. when my dad told her that my sis got scholarship and got monehy she was like oh! jin ho ah! (means very good in hokkien) she kept clapping and clapping and repeating how good my sister is.

service was ok. attended the mandarin service with my dad and grandparents. went to toa payoh for lunch.. grammy ordered so much food and kept asking me to eat more! i told her i was full den she like not happy liddat. so i was obliged to stuff more food into my mouth. very uber full! apparently everyone else was full too esp granny cos she like burped dunno how many million times. she like even burped into my ear by accident. i almost pukked. i think she can compete with ongton alr.

reached home.. mama and isabel were alr at home. my mom was trying to show my dad the photo she and my sis took with the minister. my dad was so happy he wanted to print it out. kept making a fuss over the photo.. i was cramping i almost fainted. tried to start a bit of work but was too tired. so ended up sleeping. yawn.

guess i shld start work soon. chinese is due tml.

2006-01-07T23:42:00.000-08:00

today's a boring day. last night stayed up to wait for shey's entry.. kena nagged so went to bed. slept at 1.30.. den woke up at 6.30 by alarm clock! argh. lazed in bed till ard 645. den got up to study chinese cos cher wan test ting xie. went for tuition at 8am. yawn. almost fell asleep during e lesson. so damn tired.

went home after that.. had breakfast and used e com. oh yes.. i had a talk wif my dad. he said he only allow me to use e com twice on weekdays and on weekends. im sad but i guess its for my own good. oh did i mmention that my chinese teacher bakes really nice cookies? yumm yumm. i kept listening to the recorded shan hu hai over and over agn. i think ongton and ween sing veh nice! and yes i can hear jonneh sing! haha we're all excited about monday..

blah blah blah.. nothing much happened except i fell asleep doing geog. woke up for dinner and went for tuition. ordered macs there cos laoda haven't eat dnr.

YINGEN!! yes i like ur suggestion. especially bout the part where you teach me sciences. hahaha.. tml isabel gna collect her moneh. scholarship at some community center. bah. like i care.

2006-01-06T11:49:00.000-08:00

whee im back. high now. but veh tired. i realised im abnormal! bah. im talking rubbish. shall not blog bout wad happened today. just go read ongton's or xj's blog. just finished pia-ing like 1 cheena compo. im lacking inspiration. argh. thinking bout that pile of hw i need to complete over the weekend makes me puke.

im happy today cos nvr kena nag bout using e com. i guess today's friday that's why. and my dad's in a good mood. 2 more weeks from today it'll be jiayu mama's bdae! haha.

im pissed with every single teacher that walks into my class and tells us that we haf only 6 months to study. bah bah bah. yucks. im going nuts. dunno if i can tahan till de end of this year. everybody's telling everybody to study hard. haii. im bored. one week of school ended just like that. i cant catch up. i tired. guess i'll sleep soon.

2006-01-05T20:57:00.000-08:00

today was another long day. isabel was sick so didn't go to school.. my aunty brought her to see doctor. and something most amusing happened. know when you go doctor right? den de doctor will give mc.. well apparently e doctor gave my sis mc for today and tml, tell her to rest at home. den she was like "huh? but i want to go to school!" den e doctor was like " if you go to school you may pass ur fever to your classmates." den she agreed. i was like !?@#$%^&* got mc to pon school dun wan take wan go back school!?!?! wow. my sis simply rox. if e doctor gimmie two days mc i happy like crap ah.. well it's my sis...

anyways. today had pe first lesson. some mr chai teacher. he's super lame. blah blah blah... den had bio, learn some endocrine stuff.. i almost fell asleep. after bio erm.. was oh chinese! bah. zheng lao shi. f2's table tennis teacher. she talked the whole lesson away.. recess went bookshop get stuff.. photocopy stuff. next lesson. english. spent the whole lesson introducing ourselves? damn slack. maths.. yay. but i fell asleep and had to get shey and elisha to explain the matrix to me. haha. managed to get it in de end. yay. thanks! last lesson was geog. got mrs tan lai yin. she veh fierce. geog geog geog.. the lesson took forever to end.

had rehearsal. no. had a long period of waiting time. boring. wait until like 5 plus? den we got to go hall pract. s.l.o.w. i veh long nvr go mr tan's hse le.. wait i kena. argh. last night was not a goodnight. long and sad. i shall not elaborate. just that why must follow someone elses mood? when that person happy expects us all to be too. when that person's moody expects all of us to not high. ey i got feeling wan can. not for venting anger on!

i finished printing my ss le. decided not to draw cos if i draw it'll probably look like some primary school kid's drawing. blog awhile den go do work le. alot of work due on monday. bah.
i just thought of something. something that happened on new years' eve. i feel stoopid. den i'll think of candy.. im crapping le.

i feel veh sad leh. why you ignoring me? is it cause you feel awkward? or is it that this friendship doesn't matter to you anymore? i cannot let go that easy, not of a person who made such big influence in my life. is it because of me? i feel very bad. pls dun ignore me. dun do this to me =(

2006-01-04T21:05:00.000-08:00

today's e second day of school! boring. last night was not veh good. hrmps. nvm. we ad two math lessons today! maths maths! i like maths, i understand math. unlike chem, which is like alien to me. haha. tkx shey for helping me with e calculations today. i was like totally lost. yes and before i forget. shey's sitting right next to me. this crappy woman, suddenly high suddenly stress.. haha.

first lesson was math, den SEL (social emotional learning) aiya, so cheem. CME lah. mrs helen chew was conducting e lesson.. i couldn't concentrate, switched off half way and started doodleing on my book. i wrote MOR MOR BITE YOUR BOOT in caps on my book and shey started tearing paper. tats was when she decided to write note to ween bimbo ongton and jiayu. so i wrote some too. haha. word of e day: zoovber! haha.

omg! my mama's coming out of e toilet soon. i wanted to like just open any page to "show" tat im doing some kinda a research so i went to yahoo and typed 'blah'. and clicked on e first link and guess what!?!?! haha. i ended up here.

http://www.athensohio.net/entertainment/blahblahblah/

hahahahahhahahaha. it's damn funny! haha. oh it's so funneh i can't stop laughing! hahahahaha.

okok.. rubbish. haha. we got ms Kartini for ss and ms tay for chem. lalala.. after school had choir pract. learnt finish shan hu hai. sounds quite nice. except tat sop dun get to sing e melody. eeks. we end up oohing the whole song. boring. tml haf rehearsal. cancelled piano lesson. downloaded sexylucas party photos and countdown 2006 photos.. over 100 plus photos lehh.. haha. im crapping le.. i wna watch american next top model. showing later at 10.30pm. yay.

tml's gna be a long day. i dun wan go school.

2006-01-02T13:12:00.000-08:00

it's 2006. i haf more mood to blog today.. so many things i wna say. just read shey's blog. i feel veh touched. ohh sexylucas rox. really wna thank you all for making my year. thank you joneh shey and sher for just being there last night. i really needed that. thank you thank you thank you. really really had a fun time at party that night. pillow fight!!

why ween not on same level as us le? why why why? hrmp. i really wan toilet party leh.. not looking forward go school le.. really really dun wan go sec 4. boos.

im getting my phone later. haf to pay evt myself. i feel scared. duno what to do. i think im wierd. bah.

2006-01-02T03:04:00.000-08:00

im sad. and im tired.

i miss my phone. badly.

losing your phone is not a veh good way to start a new year. boos. it still doesn't feel like 2006 yet. i feel stoopid. shall elaborate when i haf more energy.
=(

2005-12-30T10:48:00.000-08:00

today is 2006 eve. i dun wan 2006 to come. i dun wan go sec four. resolutions are rubbish. i feel sad today. shall start on wad happened yesteday.

woke up at 10am and went to shey's hse at 1130 to put stuff.. den we happily went shopping at marina square for sexylucas pressies. very very high until shey realised she couldn't find her ezlink card.. we searched everywhere, even e dustbin coz shey tot she accidently threw away her card wif her mac donals bag. she veh veh sad coz e ezlink card haf her primary school picture. den we went to city hall control station again to ask e uncle if anybody reported card loss. coz we alr asked once so i really was hoping tat someone nice had returned e card. and it really was there! we were so so happy started jumping ard like siao char bors.

i was really hungry then and went to orchard kfc to makan. if only i hadn't insisted that i was hungry. i feel stoopid. i put my phone on the table beside de tray. den i still reminded myself to take it before i leave. i guess what. i forgot. how stoopid can that get? I LEFT MY PHONE I KFC AND SOMEONE TOOK IT! PLS WHOEVER FOUND IT CAN RETURN TO ME? i miss my phone.. got feelings wan leh. curse whoever stole it.. *sobs*
i called papa like immediately. i started crying like mad. shey din know what to do wif me. i dun even know what to do wif myself! how could i have been so dumb? i hate myself. I MISS MY PHONE!! my papa's not angry.. but my mama's fumming. if i get on another of her nerve, she'll just explode. im sad, scared and i hate myself.

haii. after that horrible incident, took train down wif shey to tamp. no mood at all. met sher ongton bimbo xj and went to shey's hse play. i couldn't stop thinking of my phone. felt lost. but i just high anyway. dun wna spoil their mood. anyways. shey and i hid in her mama's rm to wrap presents. im horrible at wrapping. shey'pro. watched scary movie 2 after that. was damn sick.. and funneh. it sorta cheered me up then had dnr. took alot of photos at dinner. calenthea came while we were watching scary movie and we had spaghetti for dinner. yummy. used wine glasses for e drinks. sher said veh romantic. den went shey's rm to tok crap. had pillow fight and took lotsa photos. shey said she din wna take photo coz she dun haf double eyelid ytd. bimbo leh. then we got hungry and shey's aunty cooked nuggets for us. ongton kept burping the whole time and we were all disgusted. his phone kept ringing and we said was his girlfriend. haha. took photo wif joneh.. looked spastic. haha. den sher's mama called her and allowed sher to stay overnight! we were so so so happy. calenthea had to go home tho. it was like 12am when we left shey's hse, no more buses back to calenthea's hse. so we e nice ppl decided to walk calenthea back home! she stays in kembangan leh! shey's hse is in tamp! whoos. we sang all da way to her hse. reached at 2am! all of us sehh diao.. haha. ongton was slp walking. joneh was singing with shey and me. high high. sher and shey were doing catwalk.. haha. super funneh. reached cally's hse and shey's mama asked if we wanted a lift back.. oh shey's mama rox. saved our lives. went back and ban1 de beds to the hall so we can slp. shey and joneh cooked noodles for ongton.. i was hungry so kopped some. shey younger brother ended up finishing it all. haha. greedy pig. watched mean gals.. sher ongton xj and shey were dozing off half de time. i was wide awake.. joneh din really slp the whole night! he was playing wif shey's hair. fell asleep after some lame show tat shey's brother was watching. he really got stamina leh. so late still dun wan slp.

this morning woke up damn early. joneh was rubbishing wif shey, saying he realised she dun haf balding spot.. shey was super happy. she noticed that her double eyelid was back.. ongton went bathe and left wif joneh and xj. sher and i ate biscuits then her mama came fetch her. i took a bus back.. sher shey jy candy and maybe joneh gg countdown at orchard tonight. i wan go oso.. but i think we're gg uncle's hse tonight. im tired. and i miss my phone.

2005-12-29T09:49:00.000-08:00

yay! im high! but at e same time tired.. i think im wierd.. haha. today was at tan's hse e whole day. played mahjong wif jingxuan, this indian gal i duno her name, and pk. i only know his initials. anyway play like for the longest time i can remember.. then we got hungry. pk ordered pizza for us and treated! nice guy.. haha. play like crazy den he left. yi xin and another gal took over den we played till almost 6. jingxuan had to go for tuition.. so we stopped. was super tired today.. or shld i say yesterday.. haha. excited about later's party!! whee! high high! shopping shopping! i think im getting it real bad.. my mom's annoyed wif me.. keep telling me to study harder.. yucks. who cares.. haha.. im high now! whee! toilet gang! haha.. high high..

2005-12-26T21:21:00.000-08:00

boos! happy boxing day everyone! whee hee hee!! im high.. but i little bored. haha. nothing much to blog about. hmms.. christmas was quite fun.. lotsa food.. yummy yummy food. haha. yes yes jiayu mama i'll raise my two hands and wave.. haven't done my hmwk! tml going back school.. blah blah blah... looking forward to see everyone agn..! after came back frm my trip onleh saw shey, ween, joneh and joel. haha.. shey and ween miss him alot! well dey get to see him tml.. haha. saw him yesterday at some coffee shop in lavender. was having lunch wif granny and family. grandaddy din go church yesterday coz his leg wasn't well. hope he's feeling better. was trying to print photos for some moving board tml.. apparently this com dun haf microsoft.. difficult to work with. wait till my brother's done wif e other laptop den i use. nothing nothing much le.. tata! happy boxing day!! ahbish!

2005-12-24T22:51:00.000-08:00

wheee!! im back! coz sher requested that i updatee.. so being the nice person that i am, i shall do so now! laoda ask me to blog about her.. so.. laoda!! i rox!! ahahaha.. im high now..oooh!! haha.. i haf so many things to blog about. msia trip, farewell, bangkok trip!!! i shall take my own sweet time. oh yes darlings, it's 1 hr to CHRISTMAS!!!! wheee! so fun so fun! as i said, im high. haha.

okok.. shall start with msia trip. as i always say, im lazy to load picts.. so go shey's blog! oh yes minqi, de link is fixed le! haha.. firstly.. we the LUCAS rock!! wheeeee!! ahahaha.. msai trip was so much fun. shall take my time to write. first day, or rather, the night before the trip, ween bimbo ongton and i stayed up till midnight to wait for de female bimbo.. haha aka shey to come online! she MUST feel veh honoured! ahaha.. we chatted and chatted and decided to meet early for breakfast and simpang bedok! haha we chatted the whole night thru and i duno how, but managed to keep ongton awake till like 2am plus den he pleaded like some crazy boy before we decided to let him take a nap.. haha.. stoopid bimbo WALKED to simei at like 3am looking for food! silly bimbo forgot that no shops were open for him.. haha. shey and i laughed like siao. finally 345am came. ongton woke up and we went all went bathe. i waited at home frm 4am to 430am for NICE shey to come. apparently she was late lah.. normal.. haha. was msging ongton and asking him for lollipop. coz we were supposed to fetch him after shey to fetch me. so he was waiting as well.. he siad he was walking ard his hse like a kukumoron. digress a bit. haha. shey, sher and i were toking bout how bimbo can be really influencing.. ok. no link. anyway, shey came, we fetched ongton and went to sch! hid our luggages and walked down to simpang to get breakfast.. we were super high! haha. walking back frm simpang was even funnier. we waved to every single car tat drove up e hill coz all was gg to sch mah.. haha. until... (hee hee) then we stopped. we boarded e bus but too bad shey and mega were not on e same bus as us. took ongton's moof and played with it like mad. i tot i forgot to bring my piggy, and was rather upset bout it, but later on e bus i realised it was in my bag!! was so so so happy! haha. moof was named by me.. haha. coz of inspiration frm cowlia. haha. we were wacking e toys in the bus.. high like crazy. de poor tour guide was tryin to talk to us but apparently nobody boother bout her.. haha.

all of us fell asleep on e bus coz nvr slp at all. reached msia at ard.. 4 i think. waited for e chers to gif us our rms.. shared rm wif shey.. alot of other things happened in the next few days. i dun haf so much stamina like shey to write em all out one by one.. but we were high. shey and i kept gg over to the ongton bimbo ad justin's rm to play.. haha.. laugh like crazy mad ppl. partied at their rms some nights... haha. details? go look at shey's blog lah.. haha. overally... we got a sliver for e competition. were very upset bout it.. cried twice. malu. kena scolding...... for stuff.. i almost fell asleep during e scolding coz was crying so hard tat my eyes were swollen and tired.

de fireflies were boring. my whole entire leg kena mozzie attack.. ITCHY!! eeks. din like it at all. aiya. experience lah. tat nite party like siao agn... play until like 4am. haha. den we all fell asleep. nexxt day we went to times' square for shopping!! kena scolding agn. we all not so cham. shey tat side worse. anyway. all were veh reluctant to return to singapore. just had so so so much fun! haha. lalalalala. den liddat msia trip over le. boos.

next day we met at 11am for farewell prep.. bot all de stuff we needed.. got flowers frm toys r us for our dear sec fours. the bag was so dua. haha. had lunch and went to e hotel.. play play play and play. we were so so so happy tat the hotel facilities were good and tat e ballrm was big! oh so happy.. haha.. we were high high high while getting ready for the farewell. ongton and zhengyi were designers of the guestbook cover pg! yay! my drawing sucks.. so haha. silly ongton loves e camera. kept asking me to help him take photos! haha.. super funneh. everybody dress until veh veh nice tat nite.. haha. took so many many photos! i save until my thumbdrive no space. haha.

2 days later.. which is sunday 18 dec, took a night flight to bangkok, thailand. shey and yingen missed me! aww. haha. tat day shey candy and bimbo went to esplanade to watch e estonian gals sing. shey said dey sang veh well! anyways. reached bangkok around12 midnight. super tired. fell asleep almost immediately. de rm keys super big and heavy! i was super amused. anyway. the next day went for a boat ride and saw what floating markets look like. but only saw like one or two. in my mom's version, 'fake' ones. haha. my dad and i were wondering, coz dey sell bananas on e boat, how do you control de boat and sell at e same time? wad if de bananas fall into e water? take up and sell agn? eew. haha. saw really big fishies in e water.. so huge. spent e rest of de day shopping at this huge shopping mall called MBK. the clothes are like.. super cheap!! haha.

next day went to this theme park called dreamworld to play... my brother was so excited he kept saying 'dreamworld here i come!' he pissed me off. i was saving my energy for shopping! mama and me did some shopping in e theme park! i got my PURPLE 3 quarts and a skirt! loved it.. haha. in de end at night din go shopping le. boos. i ended up using e com at bangkok. haha.

4th day was shopping day!!! mama and me went to prathunam market to shop shop shop! budden de stuff there i dun like. my mama bot almost 10 pieces of clothing! i only got 2. coz de stuff there is like.. one piece 50 baht.. convert to sing dollars is like 2 dollars! like where on earth can u find such a good deal?? haha. shop like crazy.. inde end went back to MBK.. coz i think e stuff there still nicer, although more expensive.. SHOPPING SHOPPING! the most bored was my dad of course.. my brother and sister ended up in an arcade.. haha.

last day.. hmmm.. de happiest day fr my daddy.. he couldn;t wait t bet back to singapore! we left ee hotel at 1330 singapore time (bangkok is slower by one hr)
boarded e plane at 430pm. reahed singapore ard.. 8pm. de plane ride was super jerky.. almost puked.. giddy like siao. bimbo said he saw me at e airport.. but i din see him. haha. silly bimbo. bimbo said shey missed me alot.. haha.. awws..

it's like 12.35am.. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! wheeeee!

2005-12-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

bangkok! im in bangkok rite now! ahahahaha.. in case ur wondering, there's internet usage here! it's only 2 sing $ per hr! yingen say veh cheap. i think so too.. but one hr is soooo short.. haha.. the clothes here are freaking cheap too! anyone wants anything quick sms me k.. SHOPPING!!! im coming back on thursday.. so yingen dun miss me too much! ahahaha.. shopping is FUN FUN FUN! too bad my sis , dad and brother dun know how to appreciate. hank goodness there's someone call... MAMA! ooh.. haha.. someone who spend moneh wif me! haha.. im high now. looking for stuff to get for everyone.. but so hard to find.. i onleh left half an hr! argh argh.. so short so short.

shopping shopping shopping!!!

2005-12-18T15:26:00.000-08:00

i'll be in bangkok in 6 hrs! haha.. leaving today! yingen dun miss me too much! i'll try not to forget ur bdae pressie! haha.. luff ya

2005-12-18T01:38:00.000-08:00

ooohs.. haha.. feeling rather high these few days.. just came back frm malaysia 2 days ago.. shopping rocked! wheee! haha.. so many things happened these few days.. time passes so fast! okok.. shall slow down a bit.. camp rocked. wan see photos? go shey's blog! dun link frm me. the link is wrong. i lazy change. haha.. had so much fun..

malaysia was fun too.. esp the talk cok sessions and the party time! took lotsa photos that my thumb drive can't store them all! haha.. shopping with the guys were fun.. was so amusing to see them try on clothes! all damn high! ran ard the shopping mall like nobodys business. haha.. din want it to end. din wna come back singapore too.. only wanted to come back coz.. i missed my mama and papa.. and my com! haha.. man all e party sessions were fun.. we crapped like nobody's business couldn't stop laughing. toked about rather interesting topics.. hee hee. prank called and joked like mad. had com meeting on the last night for farewell the next day.. heard there were three physcos going round the hotel.. everyone was getting paranoid. when we made sure everyone was fine, continued wif meeting... blah. and soon all back in singapore. so fast rite..

next day woke up late. supposed to meet at 11am at tamp.. haha.. overslept. met up wif comm to go get farewell stuff and went down to hotel.to lotsa crappy fotos.. haha.. lazy to elaborate.. when i haf mood den shall say more. anyway farewell was ok.

going bangkok tml night! anyone wants anything quick sms me kay! yupps.. will be missing out on the carolling. im tired.

2005-12-05T23:14:00.000-08:00

bimbo day today.. haha.. fun and tiring day.. inspired by duno wad to drop an entry.. a bit high coz of laoda.. haha.. competition is.. 3 days away.. heh. jiayou everyone!!

after choir today, had short sectionals for the sec 1s den 8 of us com members went to makan at changi airport. minqi, shey, weenee pok, me, joneh, mr balakrishnan, clinton and xinjun. two bimbos were screaming their headds off at the airport. damn malu can.. start talking alot of crap. went popeye to makan. burp. super full. den shey, joneh, clinton and me want to balestia to check out the quality hotel. the ballroom was quite impressive. den the hotelier took us down to the eatery to haf a drink and discuss some details. she asked us if we wan soft drinks. shey said no, much to clinton's disappointment.. haha.. was rather awkward after that. lot of funny stuff happened.. haha..

took a bus ride back.. fell asleep on the way. super tired. the train was super squeezy. esp when we reached city hall.. missed one train so they insisted that we die die must board the next one. den veh funny.. haha.. kept making fun of shey.. laugh until i pek.. haha.. clinton almost killed me. nealy squashed my face. joneh insisted that shey was balding.. tat stoopid bimbo kept touching her hair trying to cover her "bald spot". super amusing.. haha.. den shey asked joneh to squat down. he veh guai lor.. bend down.. haha. den shey messed his hair! he looked as if he was ready to kill her.. haha.. this bimbo kept looking at the door for his reflection so he can make his hair nice nice.. haha.. bimbos. clinton was so tired that he was standin up sleeping. haha. den joneh made funny faces infront of him.. looked super cartoon.. i laughed like mad.. haha.. almost fell back on this big sized guy standing behind me.. haha..

as usual, im tired. tml's gna be a super long day.. and im not loking forward to it.

2005-12-05T00:04:00.000-08:00

im tired today.. choir camp ended yesterday! had a wonderful time except a bit of spoiling.. (ahem) nevermind. overall i had a fun time.. duno how the other choir members feel, but this is our (or rather my) first time organising a camp.. hee hee. hope is wasn't that bad... some stuff cocked up tho, but i think we still had fun. competition is 4 days away. worried. i oso duno why. maybe im being too paranoid. hmm. nvm.

today got chance to wake up late (like finally)coz daddy wanted to go for 11.30 service coz their hokkien service changed to 11.30am. den reached mmr tan's hse kinda late coz had lunch with granny and grangpa they all at pek kio. daddy sent me to tuition.. did so math. realised that i work veh slowly these few weeks. like december is ending soon and i haven't done lotsa stuff yet. this whole wek would be a rushed out one.. how? i dun like to rush. stress. i like to take my own sweet time. but no time.

mr tan say i lagging behind the others coz i din go for one whole wk. den tml haf chinese tuition, tuesday haf piano class, wednesday haf workshop until super late, and thursday haf to pack up to leave. i dare not tell mr tan i haf no time. he expect me to go frm 1pm to 8 pm. how and the best thing is everydy at 8.30 am haf choir pract till 12pm. coz of competition. i dare not tell mr tan i cnt go. or not wait he scold. budden even if i go, i'll be falling asleep half the time. how neh? argh.

tml haf choir pract agn. shey is gg with joneh to joochiat to get tray to return to hostel. but i can't go coz haf tuition. feel veh bad. after all im kinda responsible (though i wasn't told i was). anyway. problem problem problem. i'd better help shey with the farewell stuff in case she tired until sick. i duno lah. brain clogged up.

tml is aunty's bdae. haven't finish doing up her pressie. today's weenee pokk's bdae! happy bdae mad scientist! haha. im tired.

im tired.

2005-11-22T13:32:00.000-08:00

whee! so many many many things happen.. i duno where to start.. shall drop a short entry today lah.. no time le..

went shopping with shey! i forgot when.. bought my long pants, and two nice nice shirts! oh. the best part was.. i bought a new jacket! hurrah! i'm very happy with my shou huo. wahaha.. keep saying shey veh shi bai.. and it's true! aheehee..

going school later.. =p it's a busy day today.. just had lunch.. burp. came from piano lesson this morning. tonight still need go mr tan's house. busy me. feel like going shopping again.. but im horribly broke. somebody sponsor me! (no responce) nevermind.

my dang-ou show last episode on wednesday! ahh! i wan watch!!! hee.. nice nice nice show. jingxuan's friend lend her the whole series! not fair. i oso wan watch. missed the first few episodes of the show. boohoohoo.

keep raining this few days.. cold like what. freeze time!! ahaha.. i veh high le. siao char bor.. dun like singapore's weather.. if hot den super hot. if cold den like now liddat.. rain non stop. irritating. den people like me dun bring umbrella one.. always kena wet. but i dun care.. haha..

december coming soon. looking forward to december! so many many fun stuff to do. but veh busy too.. hmm.. homework how? i practically started nothing. i dun wan go sec four. yuck. this yr sec fours finish their Os le. so fast. nest yr will be out turn. bleh.

iw an go bathe le. den need go out. hope the rain stops!

2005-11-15T15:49:00.000-08:00

hmm..
shey just messaged me.. tat pokkie is shopping with her mama.. slack ah.. me slacking too.. gg to study soon le.. thursday haf geography re exam.. minqi is crazy.. that silly monkey.. suddenly so high.. haha..

yesterday went shopping with shi hui..was a last min decision.. bought a shirt frm 37d. tat siao char bor was wondering whether to buy a cap frm billabong or not.. we kept walking in and out of the shop.. then in the end she decided not to buy cap and save up for a jacket. haha. and she kept asking me what jacket to buy.. for about 10 times over.. i was ready to eat her up.. haha.. but was too full frm the muddy mud pies we had a coffee bean. yums. that was when i realised that it was kinda late and i needed to get home.. at the bus stop st bedok int, saw yuan zhi.. and my chinese tuition cher's daughter..

last night before bed, mama and papa were playing 'shares' agn.. i got bored of studying geog.. decided was time to sleep. then i had 'inspiration' to write to bring list and shopping list for malaysia and bangkok trip.. took 5 min to finish the whole thing.. haha.. was quite proud of myself.. hee.

bad news.. i can't find my cam! boos.. the last time i saw it was during isabel's bdae. then after that no more. wanted to bring it during class chalet.. but couldn't find.. i wan it for christmas and to bring to bangkok and malaysia take photos.. haii.. hope it will reappear soon or i haf to convince daddy to buy anither one! see how lah..

i wan get long pants! haha.. can't wait for the next time i'll get to go shopping.. oh yah.. all the best to all taking chem re exam paper tml! study hard! i need go study too... ...

2005-11-12T18:53:00.000-08:00

whoops.. sorry tiffy for boring you.. haha.. was kinda of busy these few days.. yupps.. kay.. lemmie sort out my thoughts first.. yupp.. re exam is like... 4 days away? oh no.. hope i dun fail again..

last week was a tiring week.. choir pracices, piano lessons, tuition. every monday, wednesday and thursday.. i'm happily stuck in school for 3 hrs of choir practice.. on thursdays after choir prctice, i go down to siglap south cc for more choir practices from 2 to 5. super tiring.. that's like 6 hrs of practices a day for thursday! wow.. lets see what happened on our first time there.. after choir practice which ended at 12.30, mr toh, our conductor.. requested that all the SLs stay back for a while.. apparently it took until 1 before we could leave.. went down to sempang bedok for lunch with... Minqi, shey, sherwin, gwenneth, wenxiu, shi yun, yun zhen, caiyu, jia yu and yini for lunch.. (sorry if i spelled any of your names wrongly) the 11 of us made a lot of noise.. haha.. that was when we realised it was already 1.30 and we had to reach siglap south by 2. and that was when we panicked.. we wanted to da bao our lunch but figured out later that we could actually take a cab there and reach in 5 min. so we ate like mad and later realised that we had leftover food.. so da bao and decided to give it to mr toh as a form of apology for being late. when we rushed there, we realised that we were not the latest.. haha.. anyway.. learnt two new songs for the opening.. i had a hard time that day.. due to certain unforseen circumstances.. hrmp. anyway the practice, though tiring, was quite enjoyable..

i'm worried that i won't be able to make it for practice next week.. cause my re exam falls on the same day and clashes with the timing.. my re ex starts at 12 nd ends at 2.15.. if i take a bus there. i would reach there ard... 3. if i take a cab.. the fastes 2.30.. how?? haii.. so mah huan. we'll see how lah.. maybe get someone to pay my cab fare for me??

holidays so busy i haven't started a single piece of hw. hmm.. better start soon if not im dead. trying to find a day to go out shopping with shey.. haiyo haiiyo. busy ah busy ah.. oh yes.. thankie shey for lending me da mean gals cd.. =)

dinner time!! hungry me..
week ends dun haf nice tv programmes.. haii.. only week days nice to see.. haha..

2005-11-01T09:37:00.000-08:00

hurrah hurrah!! im back! hee.. chinese o level is finally over.. phew.. but the paper was horrible.. never mind.. yes.. and thats not the worst thing.. the worst of the worst (drumroll please) is that i still haf to studying for two more horrible weeks! argh. why? you may ask.. ask our WONDEFUL and nice school lah.. grrr.. some stoopid re exam.. grrr.. and my worst subject! GEOGRAPHY. if you ask me to study mathematics i WON'T mind.. but geog? forget it lah.. haii.. spoil my holiday.. yuckx.

my papa has been complaining about my busy schedule.. he said.. "wah.. you even more busy den me leh.." what can i do?? no choice mah.. lets see now.. chalets, choir camp, malaysia trip, bangkok trip, lots and lots of choir practices, and (im sure) lots and lotsa com meetings.. but then again.. i dun mind the com meetings.. haha..hmm.. there's still planning for christmas gathering.. haii. there goes my holiday.. not to mention the horrible re exam. and tuition. haf to go for tuition 4 times a wk in november.. coz my whole december will be packed.. no choice haf to go in novmber.. and i tot i could spend time finishing my hw in nov. there goes november too.. bah.

shall talk about the nicer things.. hah. happy belated bdae.. Tiffy mei!! Cordelia!! and Petrina! haha.. God bless you all! take care!! =) YESS!! today haf class chalet! whee! oh.. but den i'll miss my 7 o clock show!!! prince turn frog! ahh.. nvm. get my sis to record for me. =) or better still.. watch in chalet! i dun wna miss my show! i pity people like vinnie and tiffy! coz their family members faithfully watch other channels. they dun get to watch this nice nice show! aww.. lucky me haf two tvs.. hee.. agrees with vinnie.. dang-ou definitely sounds nicer than mei ren yuu.. for those who still dun get waht im talking about.. i'll help channel u to advertise their show.. 7pm every wed to friday!!

my nice brother and nice sister are argueing again.. hmm. dun care them lah. kaypo later becom your fault. haha.. smart rite? (no link) i'll be away till friday.. so dun nid to hear them make noise le. nyahahaha.. oh yes.. sorry mrs cheong for dao-ing your sms-es.. i lost my phone u see.. forgot to go for lesson.. SORRY!

yay.. my com is working again.. no more half way break-downs! my nice papa ran the whole marine parade with me yesterday.. to get my sim card back and get me a phone! he initially wanted to get me a second-hand phone, with violent objections from my mama. haha.. end up there was this retail shop that sold phones below 200 bucks.. there was one nokia one.. i forgot the number.. and one sony ericsson one. my dad said the nokia one nicer.. but i liked the sony ericsson one coz it was smaller and cuter.. haha.. my mama was like "aiya small can lah.. they children only.. play play one lah" oi. i not xiao hai zi le hor.. say until liddat.. haha.. so i got my nice nice cute cute fone! i dun feel so lost anymore!! wahaha

on monday after o level.. i went out with my mei mei shopping! first we went to century square.. cut my hair! i know i very lagg.. but this is the first time i ever go saloon and wash hair! all along is go to those "roadside" shops where they anyhow cut for you for 10 bucks. at the saloon i got nice treatment for an hour (while my sis fell asleep waiting for me. whoops) was quite ex.. but was worth it. i haf nice hair! no more bad hair day.. yay! then mei mei and i went plaza sing to spotlight to get some stuff.. then came back to tamp to continue shoppping..yay! was so super tired..

i've been typing for abt 1/2 hour le.. hands pain pain le.. shall go and check out what's for lunch! yummy!

2005-10-22T11:21:00.000-07:00

whoopsie.. sorry to all the nice and lovable peeps that tagged! sorry for 'dao-ing'.. haha.. guess wad? im back!!!! so fun! (no link) hah. anyway.. shi hui's got a real hunggry-ish blogg! haha. so fun.. i haf to update my stuff le.. lagging for a long time.. hibernating among my books.. bleh.
eoys are finally over! yay! but chinese o levels are coming.. yuck. din go to school yesterday. thank goodness i din. heard school was boring. haha. was down with rashes at the bottom of my feet. ITCHY! they were pretty disgusting. doctor said i was alergic to something.. he oso duno wad. he said i have alergic skin! everytime i go see him is coz haf skin rash or sth.. err. i like got 2 yrs nvr go see him le.. haha. mugging hard for Os. haii. poor me..(ya lah yingen).
finally went to pierce earhole last week! super fun. wasn't as pain as i expexted. i was so nervous lor. the doctor's room look like some interrogation room. hah. jiayu, joyce and me went to pierce together. i just yanked out the doctor's earing yesterday and put on the cute cute star ones. hee. sister was amused. kept starring at it as if it was the first time she saw earings.
i wan to pack my room! but i duno where to start. (i'll probably end up not bothering anyway) it looks like a pigsty/ storeroom/ rubbish dump/ wadever you call it. went tuition this morning.. woke up at 6.. to finish up my hw. YAWN. my reward? one whole chunck for assignments. somebody pity me! *sniff*
i wan to cut my hair! okay. not exactly cut. budden i wan to do something to my horrible hair! hair will haf to wait till after chinese o level! im just inspired to grt a fringe.. haha. hair hair hairyy!
i just realised. food fair is on monday and nobody in my gp has planned anything yet. uh oh. the laptop keeps disconnecting. super annoying. october's ending soon.. means.. tiffy's bdae is coming! cordy's bdae is coming too! i din forget! hee. can't wait to see you all again.. =)
-happy birthday jingxuan!-

2005-08-19T13:23:00.000-07:00

ok.. now i back after being extinct for 3 months.. wow. now why doesn't my blog haf colour for de text?? unfair. anyway.. 3c rox.. harr.. sorry for being dead for 3 months. ok.. HOPE to blog more often.. 3 moths pass so fast.. yeah.. it's like wad... 2 more months to eoys? damn.. im like so dead.. so many things going on in choir.. for instance. after ms lim (our beautiful conductress)'s departure.. we were sad enough.. and mr yong had to leave... **sobb** com had lunch at seoul garden with him on his last day at choir.. it was so much fun.. im really gna miss mr yong and ms lim..sighh.. post some photos later.. now coms planning for the december choir camp! yayy! 'sgna be so much fun.. harr. can't wait for december.. my december hols will be really packed.. =) stoopid caleb was trying to peep at my entry.. luckly im using e latop.he's uing de com.. haha. i moved the laptop away from his direction so he couldn't read.. chanced upon my mom's olden days photo yesterday.. my goodness.. my mom's de preetiest of all her siblings.. yaee!! haha.. i feel slackish today.. darn.. next wk haf two tests. ss and math. dun understand a single thing bout ss.. bleh. oh yes.. i passed my grage 8 practical!! yayyness!! like finally.. i dun know wad i'll do if i failed.. o level chinese is in 8 wks.. sssstress. how time flys.. i think i said it for the millioneth time already.. well i'll say it again. time flys.
Life's not fair. it really isn't. some people are born smart,some are made to study, others are made for other things. some have physical shortcomings, others just cant communicate.. but which of these do we haf a choice? can we change our fate? well we can make the best of it though.. live for yourself.

"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life."
-Albert camus

(bleh.. so hard to dl photos! =( boos.yuck.)

MIA for some time.. hee..

2005-06-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

ok.. im back again.. it's been some time since i updated.. april? yeah.. tat's quite some time.. sigh.. so many things going on recently.. trying to keep my cool.. hope not to explode so soon.. harr.. 2 weeks of the june hols haf gone.. (tats fast) yeah.. not done wif hw.. eek.. anyways.. so many things going on.. time flys like mad.. i think im going crazy too.. harr.. it's past one month already.. im missing so so so so so many people.. i can't straight.. wad's happening to me? i think i need the mental hospital.. haha..
dad did "councelling" for me again.. me and my horrible time management.. argh.. yuck.. if i were smarter den dunnid think so hard le.. argh.. anyways dun feel like typing le.. hands numb.. so much for today... hope next wk will be better!

whee!! com recovered.. (finally)

2005-04-29T06:57:00.000-07:00

hah.. im back again.. hee.. im com like FINALLY recovered!! haha.. but... lost all de nicee sings and important files.. diaoz.. anyways.. so mannie things happened lately it's gonna take millions of entries to finish it all.. ok.. i shall take mi own sweet time.. heh..
yay!! chior rawks! haha.. we got a gold! haha.. (ps. i know im lagging.. yarr.. but.. pls forgive!) congrats band and guitar! haha thanks for getting that gold! we get the half day off! whee! congrats chin meng.. vp of council.. hah.. i have lotties of thankies to say later on..
sianz.. mid yearies round de corner! all ke lian de peeps taking mid yrs all jia you! God bless ya all! had compo exam today.. was a disaster.. hai.. oral was worse.. i got cai teacher.. i was sooo nervous but didn't think she noticed it.. anyways.. it's all over so i hope she'll gimmie some compassion marks..harr..
it's so late le..i dun care.. gonna use de com till i shuang.. harr..i miss my msn.. yay.. got it back..
a piece of GREAT advice from me.. "treasure the people around you.. when you leave them.. dun regret.. but take it that you haf spent the most wonderful times in your life with them.." dearest closies.. mummie jacq, vinnie jie, crazy althea, quiet eunice, funky sheryl, beloved tiffy, my two wondeeful cg leaders.. im reelie gonna miss you all... im trusting in God.. i noe he has plans for me.. God bless you all.
2k04... missing you all.. jin zhi, take care!
3c05... RAWKX! haha..
won't be tagging for a long time.. till after midyears.. yupp.. so wish me all de best!

songg!

2005-03-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

imagine me without You - jaci velasquez

As long as stars shine down from Heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life, You're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without You there to see me through
Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard my calling
And You rushed to set me free
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You
I need You

I can't imagine me without You

Wherever you are -- Disney
Come out moon
Come out wishing star
Come out
Come out
Wherever you are

I’m out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I’m empty and I’m cold
And my heart is about to break
Come and find me

A need you to come here and find me
Cause without you I’m totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn’t done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are

I’ll hear you laugh
I’ll see you smile
I’ll be with you just for a while
But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I’ll lose you

Because it’s just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I’ll lose you

I use to believe in forever
But forever is to good to be true

I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn’t done much good so far

I don’t know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming to
Wherever you are

Wherever you are

Friends are friends forever -- Michael W. Smith
Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter of your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And with the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you live in
Is the strength that now you show

We'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

To live as friends

Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

No a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

post no. 2..tee hee

2005-03-24T00:14:00.000-08:00

i dunno how to feel
i guess life is unpredictable..
i guess we'll just have to leave everything to God..
Seperation is inevitable..
im missing everyone.. sighh
i duno wad to do..

"And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends"

this phrase means the world to me.. it's so meaningful..
im gonna miss you.. don't go..

blahxx

2005-03-07T23:32:00.001-08:00

terrible me.. this few wks were horrible.. juz realised tat i haven't go online fer quite some time le.. hee.. not been doing well for recent class tests.. blah.. muz buck up le.. all you peeps out there struggling wif sch and stuff.. JIA YOU! life's tough, still haf to overcome it.. lol.. juz take things easy lah.. stress oso no good..
wed haf bonding camp! yay.. can slack for the rest of the week.. den hols muz pia hw and juggle cca, tuition, tuition and piano lessons.. HELLO? im a human here? not a machine? wadever lah.. camp finish le den say.. haha.. at least haf time to slack.. test until i mad oredi..
yawn yawn.. almost 12 le.. tml stiu need go sch.. haiyo.. k lah.. short and sweet.. nite

blahxx

2005-03-07T23:32:00.000-08:00

terrible me.. this few wks were horrible.. juz realised tat i haven't go online fer quite some time le.. hee.. not been doing well for recent class tests.. blah.. muz buck up le.. all you peeps out there struggling wif sch and stuff.. JIA YOU! life's tough, still haf to overcome it.. lol.. juz take things easy lah.. stress oso no good..
wed haf bonding camp! yay.. can slack for the rest of the week.. den hols muz pia hw and juggle cca, tuition, tuition and piano lessons.. HELLO? im a human here? not a machine? wadever lah.. camp finish le den say.. haha.. at least haf time to slack.. test until i mad oredi..
yawn ywan.. almost 12 le.. tml stiu need go sch.. haiyo.. k lah.. short and sweet.. nite

-- not knowing how to feel--

2005-02-21T09:00:00.000-08:00

indeed this is the horriblest day of my life.. i just wrote a super long entry.. den kena erased away.. omg.. now haf to re write again.. i shall start from friday..

After choir, rushed to sheryl's house.. it was kinda a "disaster".. haha.. Sheryl and Mandy can understand.. we squished the chicken and butchered it.. chopped pork and i smelled of fats.. yuckie.. haha.. mandy had to go home at 12 am.. she stay next block, so vv convinient.. sheryl and i worked on the power point till 6am.. i flopped onto her sofa and slp.. next morning we rushed to tamp to meet the ldrs.. mandy went to jacq's hse first while sheryl and i went to get some last min stuff.. the stuff was so heavy we had to take a cab there.. reached there, settled down then mandy and i went to fetch the ushers.. many we're last and some last min din turn up.. everything was kinda messy.. we had games.. the water game was kinda luan.. haha.. nut the "fire" game was kinda fun.. except for the wind.. haha.. blew the candles out.. but we all had fun..the bbq was done quite late but cause the "neighbouring" bbq gave us lots of food.. haha.. we had lots to eat.. celebrated Joanne's belated bdae.. haha.. worship was good.. but throwing jacq into the pool was fun.. haha.. the lrds played pool till 11.. i took a bus home with Elinna.. =) reached home close to 12.. i wanna say a BIG thankew to Vinnie, Juliana, Jacq, and Elinna.. who helped so much with this outing! =)

today was a bad day.. cause of lack of slp, i went to sch gong gong.. then founf out got a. maths test on tues.. and chem surprise test tml.. gosh.. got back cheena test results.. was vv disappointed.. mrs lim made us stay back.. she tot that we din hand in hw, when most of us guai guai hand in le.. coz the rep din gif her on time.. when i wasn't class after sch, someone (either purposely or accidently) knocked my file over and the worksheets fell out.. the person just put the ws back on top of the file, and the wind blew one maths hw due on wed into a puddle of water.. the person who did that was very inconsiderate..

when i reached home today, my sis almost whacked me with the front door.. ouch.. i bathed and wanted to watch the show i asked my mom to record for me coz i wasn't at home.. guess wad.. the show kena "recorded over".. sommore is last episode! i vv xin tong..

Guess Tiffany mei was ritee.. the usher outing was a dream... for me, it was too fun to be true, with this hectic life.. mom's nagging again.. asking me to do my work.. God pls help me..

treasure the ones you haf...

2005-02-15T20:56:00.000-08:00

now cme slack period.. sneaking in an entry..
treasure those around you.. before you lose them..
be true to those around you.. dun lie to them..
it'll be too late when you regret..
the world is a cruel place..
full hardships and heart aches..
seperation is one of the worst..

CME so horrible! some difficult project thingy.. dunno wad total defence wan.. sian diao.. i juz managed to get some info frm cher..
haha.. oh dear.. bell juz ringded..
muz continue work le......

*all de best for the future*

missing me

2005-02-07T07:01:00.000-08:00

gosh.. i think i've been missing for a month.. blah.. super tired lately.. wif all dumb tests and all.. at last haf 3 slack days.. phew.. chinese new year.. school has been a disaster.. tests -- terrible.. CCA -- worse.. sighh..
im so happy that i managed to shop one whole day for my new year clothes.. haha.. shopping rox.. release stress, release energy and gives you a sense of satisfaction.. haha.. whee.. i hope i'll haf more time for shopping.. but i doubt so.. aye ya..
yay!! ushering ministry's gonna haf an outing! Jacqueline mummie's place!! whee! haha.. im so excited.. i haf a lot of calling, planning and stuff to do!! im so so so so excited.. hope de games and stuff will go well! Pray pray pray! =)

=(

2005-01-18T07:27:00.000-08:00

life is terrible.. i hate sch.. been suffering from lack of sleep latey.. when lesson ended for second recess, i couldn't even stand up properly.. i feel like dying.. all these pressure from everywhere.. from my peers, from teachers and even my family.. i dun understand wad's going wrong.. my frequent headaches coming back again.. i've not been communicating much wif my dad.. i dunnno wad i shld do wif mi life now.. i feel so stupid.. so useless..
i miss 2k'04.. i luff you.. but life can only go on.. there's no turning back.. how i wish i could turn back time and stay there forever.. how i wish only happy moments existed.. how i wish that loneliness and unhappiness never appeared on this earth.. how i wish...........
--love me for who i am.. and not what you want me to be..--

erm...

2005-01-03T01:35:00.000-08:00

wah.. wad can i say.. 2k'04 rox lo.. sighh.. got my new fone on 1st of jan.. haha.. commemorate.. lol.. sch todae was totally boring.. dun like my new form teacher.. ms wong.. teaches us geog and eng.. eww.. lots of boring talks.. mmm.. new principal.. dr boon.. she's a nice lady.. feeling tired.. dun noe how im gonna cope tis year.. haf so many things bothering me.. it's juz all a dream.. happy moments fly and vanish.. sad moments are long, painful and tiring.. sighh.. God pls tell me wad to do..
hmm.. better change my template b4 sch lessons officially starts.. or not no time le.. dun like the time table arrangment.. common tests every monday! oh no.. im dead for sure.. i feel sick everywhere.. eek.. sitting like riteee in the middle of class.. wow.. had photo taking in sch.. i think the photographer a bit... haha.. shhhh.. heex..
pray that i will study doubly.. no.. triplely(is tat how u spell it? nvm) hard.. phew.. brain congested.. no more space! haha.. crap la.. today is my last day to slack le.. awwww.. one last complaint.. my class is on the second highest floor! ...climb..climb..climb.. ouch! haha.. k le.. time to go find a new template! haha.. oh.. tivona! ur blogg rox! haha..

sick

2004-12-30T21:41:00.000-08:00

Phew.. another tiring day.. mugging ss project.. =( super tired.. another.. 3 more days?? im dead meat.. hw not done.. not prepared for anything.. blah.. i feel like banging the wall.. crap.. oh well.. at least managed to get the web page done.. tkx to Sheryl!! haha.. went changi airport for lunch plus proj.. went crazy.. laugh like a lunatic.. din manage to finish proj so tonite muz continue mugging again... this is crazy.. i'll be the next one to the assylum.. sighh.. tml meeting up again to finalise proj.. hope we can get everything finished by then..
i dun wanna grow up.. can i rewind back to kindergarden? and stay there forever? mi life is a total havoc.. what's wrong wif me?? bleah..
tml is the last day of 2004.. regrets?? many.. resolutions?? infinity.. but never accomplished any.. heh.. next year would be the havoc year..
blah blah blah blah

yawnx..

2004-12-30T00:27:00.000-08:00

YAWNX.. haha.. super tired.. trying to rush out ss project.. but vv tired.. brain not working also.. aching all over.. eyelids closing.. big yawn..